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I've moved to the land of physics
There's a boy a little boy
Shooting arrows in the blue
And has aimed them at someone
And the question is at who
Monday, May 18, 2009
#52 When it comes? ♥
Hmm? So my MT 'O' intensive starts tomorrow. I'm pretty determined but I'm still fearing. Fearing of the outcome, fearing of my decisions made, fearing of my instability to stay focused. Ahh, fear. Today, had to stay back in school for Poly-talks. Just went for the Ngee Ann: Business/Accountancy School one. I could have went for more, but I didn't want to. I was too tired and hungry!
I often wonder what I want? Obviously, my subject combination is going to kill me in JC. But the only reason why I want to go to JC is because partly my parents and I really want to make a point. Like it really disheartens me when people think I can't? I know I can! But why do it? Just to show them? Poly is pretty much what is carved for me. But will I enjoy that life? I love school uniforms? Hahah, yes I'm a dork. But I just love having a timetable and having a compulsary CCA and have points awarded for going to CCA.
It's all about what I want in the end I guess? My parents and what people think of me should not be an excuse at all. Going to JC fufills the part of proofing to people and continue the lifestyle I would prefer. Going to Poly would mean getting settled earlier and doing something more of my intrest in focus. I hate this, esp when people think: "Since when Darian has a choice to make between JC and Poly?". That makes me want to go to JC more to show them. But I know that decision making is wrong cos' it becomes their decision. I don't know.
