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I've moved to the land of physics
There's a boy a little boy
Shooting arrows in the blue
And has aimed them at someone
And the question is at who
Sunday, May 31, 2009
#60 Why didn't you join the team? ♥
Oh dang, tomorrow's the day. I'm not freaking cos I believe I did enough revision alr. But I might just freak tomorrow. Today was spent with Aaron and Michelle. We realised we could do much but set Bao Zhang questions for each other. I believed it was quite useful. I just can't wait to get done with it. I sooo wanna clear it now!
But hmm, what's after MT 'O's? Millions of art coach. Dammit. I hate art. It's the gay-est subject ever. I regret like not doing anything about being in art. Whatever, my other subjects are my piority. Art, I will just see how it goes. Just let it be a B3? I don't care about it anymore. English, math, science and humans are what truly gonna get me there. Four distinctions? Hahah.
Basically, just plreaskezz, wish me luck. I just want to get done with it and not retake. Let it be a B3 please please. Only then I won't retake and I will study very very hard for my other subjects. I promise, I really do. So please please? Don't let the paper be everything I have not studied about.
Friday, May 29, 2009
#59 You're fragile and strong ♥
It's so near. I just want it so badly. I'm working so hard already and yet I still don't feel the afirmation that I will definitely get it. I'm really scared. I want it so much, I'm scared I won't get it. Oh please come to me.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
#58 Never miss a beat! ♥
MT 'O's is next monday and man am I scared? Hell yah! I really do not dare to think what happens if I don't do well. I'm just only thinking about doing well for it. But ahhhh, I don't know! Anyways, I guess it's confirmed, ACJC Band tune in together with Aaron and maybe Daisy and Ammy-Raeee. I have never been to a tune in but I'm definitely excited about it. Aiyah, better don't anticipate too much of it later, oh my!
Anyway, today I dropped by band for a second or maybe, more than a second lah. :P It's nice to see my section but it's unpleasant to see how things have became for some. I'm sorry if I had to reprimand you today. But you have to understand the position I'm in. I held so much hope for you, I gave you my horn, a good mouthpiece and a good part to shine. But what you did today pretty much dissapointed me. I really didn't wanted to reprimand you. Please, grow.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
#57 Why are these lights so bright? ♥
Wtheeeeck? Darian blogging at 4pm? Nope, I didn't skip MT 'O' intensive, it's just that something really bad happened in school now. Alot of people aren't coming to school for health reasons. And as I mentioned in my previous post, my class alone is like really bad alr. The teachers decided not to continue the intensive after school today and wanted us to go home a rest. Afterall, the final battle is next monday. We have to be in the best condition to take the paper.
It's currently 49 days to Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. Muahahaha! If you were to notice, I don't talk much in my posts anymore. Here, I will tell you why. Cos' the only main point in everyday is just MT 'O' intensive! Sounds rather no-lifer but that really is it. I'm doing nothing else than intensive-ing. This is super stupid but srsly I just can't wait to graduate form secondary school. Oh well.
Monday, May 25, 2009
#56 Sometimes you have to loose ♥
Man oh man! Today's MT 'O' intensive is so unproductive. Ended up playing this control-your-laughter-or-dai game with Huai Qing, Michelle and Aaron. Felt kind of bad now cos we really should have listened. Oh god I love my section but yo dudes! Lift up your horns, lazy kids! Anyway, I somehow managed to get Sarah to go on a outing this june. I wouldn't call it a Blogskins people cos we are both pretty afraid of that place. Hahha, we will see how it goes.
And it's really scary. So many people are falling sick in class. About 2 people had fever last week. Today, three people were down with fever, one with 39.1^C and two were sent home including the one with that crazy temperature. The whole H1N1 thing is scaring me. Esp, the cases in Japan started from a high school. I just don't want to fall ill on the year I take my major exams. Yeah, yeah I get to have more time to revise. But that would also mean I will enter the workforce later and my syllabus might be cut down by the government to ensure we graduate on time? I don't know. I'm worried, as usual.
Friday, May 22, 2009
#55 All you need is ($) ♥
Yep, a new layout indeed. I really like this. I feel so awesome. And I can't believe in this. I'm falling in love with chinese. Seriously, this four days of doing chinese, I'm starting to really really like it! But anyhoot, I'm about to be done with it very soon. Tomorrow, there's gonna be MT 'O' intensive again. Afterwards would be going to the library to continue my own intensive. Hope everything would work out.
Basically today my day today went really well. It was the normal intensive at first. Second half, we went to the library then keep doing paper 1s. Then then then, I kept going to the toilet! Hahahha, whuuuut? To play the horn lah! Then went home with Azri, Jieshi and Daisy lah. Alot to say. Oh well, talking with bandmates are always much more fun. IJC? NYJC? or ITE? Hahahha, just kidding about the ITE part. But now someone else is "seducing" me to go ACJC. No way man! I so clever meh!
Thursday, May 21, 2009
#54 No boundaries! ♥
I'm definitely getting used to MT 'O' intensive and I really want to get there! I swayed alittle in the beginning but I guess now my feet is firm on the ground alright. If only I could be like this for art. Got my mark sheet. Definitely unlike what my mark sheets used to look like. I prevailed but I hate this feeling but I guess it's a mistake I have to learn from. I'm ready to those whatevers that is coming straight towards me. Just gonna conquer them all one by one!
Woooooh! Kris Allen won American Idol and boy am I happy! It really annoys me when people insult Kris capabilities when he won. No one insulted Adam manz. So put your votes where your mouth is. And argh, I was just infront. You can actually look me in the eye and say nothing then walk away. Bull shit.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
#53 Days of doom ♥
First two days of MT intensive and it has drained me completely alr. The paper 1 doing actually have started to grow on me and is pretty fun actually. But the comprehension drilling? God! It annoys me so much man. Staring at the passages just really make me sleepy esp 5N1 is so stuffy. Like sauna siah. Like wtheck lo, call us to do papers from Tanjong Katong Girls and Catholic High. Cat High is centre of excellence for chinese lei? Somemore my chinese is made out of fail so obviously I struggled.
Was thinking of going late to school tomorrow with Jorin. But must see how first lah. MT 'O's coming lei. :l I can't wait til MT 'O's to be over cos' I will indefinitely do something about it. But of course, after MT 'O's will be the june intensive programme? With four weeks of hols, I don't thinking I will just be intensive-ing with the school. I will be doing my own intensive. Each week for each subject. E Math, Physics, Chemistry and Geography. And where am I going to get time for art? Aler-mak!
Monday, May 18, 2009
#52 When it comes? ♥
Hmm? So my MT 'O' intensive starts tomorrow. I'm pretty determined but I'm still fearing. Fearing of the outcome, fearing of my decisions made, fearing of my instability to stay focused. Ahh, fear. Today, had to stay back in school for Poly-talks. Just went for the Ngee Ann: Business/Accountancy School one. I could have went for more, but I didn't want to. I was too tired and hungry!
I often wonder what I want? Obviously, my subject combination is going to kill me in JC. But the only reason why I want to go to JC is because partly my parents and I really want to make a point. Like it really disheartens me when people think I can't? I know I can! But why do it? Just to show them? Poly is pretty much what is carved for me. But will I enjoy that life? I love school uniforms? Hahah, yes I'm a dork. But I just love having a timetable and having a compulsary CCA and have points awarded for going to CCA.
It's all about what I want in the end I guess? My parents and what people think of me should not be an excuse at all. Going to JC fufills the part of proofing to people and continue the lifestyle I would prefer. Going to Poly would mean getting settled earlier and doing something more of my intrest in focus. I hate this, esp when people think: "Since when Darian has a choice to make between JC and Poly?". That makes me want to go to JC more to show them. But I know that decision making is wrong cos' it becomes their decision. I don't know.
Cheers! Harry Potter is coming to town!
Sunday, May 17, 2009
#51: Black-flag: Attack! ♥
Roses are red, violets are blue. French horn rocks, because of you!
Ahh, wgsfhorn'09 ♥!
Friday, May 15, 2009
#50 Heartless! ♥
Oh my god! I'm so excited for American Idol! Tell you ar, Kris better win you'know? I almost died when Danny was out on American Idol and Allison lost America's Next Top Model on the same day k? Aiyah I was wondering if all this tv is right. Afterall I did horrid for my MYEs. Do I even deserved to "breathe". Aiyah, tomorrow is POP!
Gaaaah, today was so akward man. I see Daisy got invites for her section then of course I feel ): and that's when I barged into Liyana's class and went "Oi! Why we no invites one siah, sad lei!" Then, LULZ. She was making it! Hahahah. Tomorrow is definitely exciting. But I really dont see the joy of it much. Except for really seeing my section.
Actually this time, I really saw who were my true friends. I have everything you don't have. Of course, I'm lack of something you are full of. Desperation. Kris FTW!
Thursday, May 14, 2009
#49 Fallen off a highway ♥
Fuck! What a expressive word to start a post. Maybe. But dang! How could Teyona-"Rex" wins America's Next Top Model? She looks like a dinosaur man! So not high fashion! Wtheck, her walk was so weak! Her photos are so sleepy. Tyra, tyra girl you are blind alr isit? Nevermind, Alison has a awesome career infront of her. Muahahah.
Of course, first day after a marking day is where your exam paper gets thrown back to you. Only difference is how graceful the paper is thrown to you. Unfortunately, my papers were thrown back to me in a horrid manner mixed up with of course insults and dissapointment. Wtheck? I failed my sciences. Hmm, but I sweared I didn't feel much. It was the first time I failed my sciences since sec3 and I seriously felt nothing. I guess I expected it.
Yep, I wasn't preparing for it at all. So basically, I knew I deserved it. Then came my math which I failed too. It was the second time I failed math since sec3 also. Math was my forte! What the hell happened man? Oh! I know! I really haven't been revising. And, I know it myself. I felt deserving of this sucky grade. It was my choice. I guess I had a ego and thought I was the best.
I'm definitely not allowing myself to be positive about this this time. I'm not gonna say things like: "Oh, things can only get better from here". No! I'm gonna treat myself brutally. I failed myself terribly, as a human. What the fuck is wrong with you Tan Jian Yu, Darian?
Monday, May 11, 2009
#48 Chris Crooker moment ♥
Daaamn, I'm so angry! I was looking at the tv guide for channel 8 yesturday and what do I find? If I'm not wrong from 12noon to 6 in the evening, they are all encoring Joanne Peh's dramas? Whuuut? Just because she won that f award. God! She just merely got a good role and just alittle display of talent in the show and she got it. I feel really like daaaang! Mediacorp is so realistic in such a dumb way. Getting that award dosen't mean if you encore her dramas you will get aweeeesome viewship ratings. Mediacorp fails.
Anyway, band resumes this thursday for my juniors. I have to go visit them. Miss them too much lah. Esp my darling section! (: Hope they weren't slacking. But of course, no pressure lah since band has been on hiatus. I just want to play my horn you know? Hahah. I thought of it already. If there is a need for a fast and slow piece for the DSA audition it will be Passacaglia and Chanson Du Toreador from "Carmen Fantasy". This sounds ambitious but I might just end up doing Titanic and Blue Ridge Saga. Hahahah!
Saraah! I know you are on tv! Don't think I don't know! And and, the final of The Amazing Race! I haven't watch. Should I watch it now? I have school tomorrow you know? Oh my, who the heck won! Should I? Should?
Sunday, May 10, 2009
#47 Pirates > Star Wars ♥
Today, or rather yesturday was so unproductive. Was just sitting here playing Harry Potter on PC the whole day. I'm such a dork. I'm soooo excited for Harry Potter lah. Soon, every post I have here will be about Harry Potter. Ass! Just finished watching the documentary about 2012:Doomsday. I'm pretty worried. Like it seems like we, people really betrayed Earth. I just want to die without suffering. Scary but then it's nature.
I really should be sleepy now. Kthxbai.
Friday, May 8, 2009
#46 Mission: Play ♥
Yay. Exams are 'sort of' over. One more paper. But for that paper just find one day to do all the TYS MCQ. Yay! Give myself a break then choing MT 'O's! Once I reached home today, I played Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban on PC. That's when I realised Jie Shi plays Harry Potter games on PC too! Yay! I'm neither a dork or ghay. Hahaha. Today super gossip-y with her about internet people. He-he.
I really can't wait for -Half Blood Prince to come out man. Warner Bros so lied to us last year. Then I just made a awesome discovery today. One of my friends in blogskins is a BFF of my cousin, Hui Han. Wtheck. Wieeerd! And and, maple is so addicted with season 2. With like 5 "new" jobs, two new towns(Time Temple/Ellin Forest). Daaang! But nevermind, Harry Potter is cooler. Shall play til I drop.
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
#45 One step forward, two steps back ♥
Oh god! I really don't know how I did for my mid years so far. Chinese was so scary but I really want to get a pass this time or it will be game over for me for MT 'O's. I'm so scared cos' the cloze passage was so x_x Aiyah scary. And what? Today's SS. I planned so well and I finished my SBQ with satisfaction on time. And just enough time left to do SEQ essays and I just had to waste my time thinking and planning about what to write. Idoit! And so, I have no time for conclusions. Kewl. Now, I really have no idea how I did for SS.
EDIT./ Wthell? Yeah I'm here again. I'm so bored. I severly dislike physics. Yup! I certainly do! I'm so excited for tomorrow's math, I just dying to !@#$ it. Heh! First day of the SYF is over and I'm dying to be there. Catholic JC got their GWH. Woah, a Temasek a often gold band became silver today. MI and IJC got a bronze. But hey! It's their first year! Aiyah, I maybe wanna go hear tomorrow after exams. I don't know! :l Afterall, ahem. I have exams.
And I think you are inmature.
Monday, May 4, 2009
#44 Invisible and indivisible! ♥
Well I screwed up my art. But gah I don't really ____ about art anyway. Good news is a feel gooood about geography. I don't know. It's just everything just comes out like verbal vomit. It dosen't really need that much thinking. But with the mention of that, it sort of worries me if I was really thinking like a 0.1% most of the time during the paper. Cos' it just comes out! Even all the sarcasm and crude language.
I just threw it in to describe the countries and the soft engineering methods. No, I'm no mental, I just have a problem with soft engineering methods. Hard engineering methods for the win! I just really wish it turns out well this time. My humanities dissapointed me the previous commontest. I thought I had it all in my bag. But in the end I written out of point. It must not happen this time! I actually praise China lei! So must give me A okaaay? God, I'm despret.
I suppose the next few days would be crazy. Tomorrow's chinese, maintain composure, I should be fine. Then comes social science on wednesday which I decide to do selective revision. Cos' I really didn't listen most of the time during the part about Iraq, Iran and another middle east country. It was something about conflict. Gah, I do conflict better in Sri Lanka. Heh!
Thursday and friday will be crazy! Or rather wednesday and thursday. I have my maths paper ii and physics on thurs and maths paper i and chemistry on friday. Which is "daaaamn!". In math, I don't really perform well in those questions which you need to think out of the box and they are all in paper ii. And, of the two sciences I suck better at physics. So, goodbye! I need to make it work!