Best viewed in 1280x1024
Layout: Little Arrows
I've moved to the land of physics
There's a boy a little boy
Shooting arrows in the blue
And has aimed them at someone
And the question is at who
Saturday, March 21, 2009
#35 Have a cow! ♥
Since 'O' level is the final goal, I think all the secondary school shit gimmicks weren't all. Not much a need to waste time on them I suppose. Anyway, talk is cheap but mind what you say. Oh Miley.
Friday, March 20, 2009
#34 Your talk is cheap ♥
I want to be smarter. But I'm not. Sucks how the world rejects a stupid person. I will never be good enough.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
#33 I have done unjustice to myself. ♥
Carnival. It has left me with a broken nail, burnt finger, sunburn and a back ache. I'm left with $5 of unspent coupons. But what to do? Helping out in the stall allows me to witness inmaturity and steadiness in different classmates. Izyan and Joo Tat were doing so fine with the making of the drinks. Ms Ng and Shirly worked so hard for the selling of drinks. Jian Ting were practically selling the roof of. The rest? They were pretty much sitting around.
When it wasn't my shift, I was mostly with Amirah, Danial and Khalis with fellow Pasir Ris and Juying band mates sometimes with Chiu Hwa and Dewi too. That was when we realised how boring the carnival was if you weren't working. Hahah, you gotta work it! Carnival has really made me relax alittle. Allows me to stop worrying so much abit. But then again, when will I 100% let go of all my problems and leave them to other people or resolve them?
Last ten minutes of the carnival came the rain. A blessing or a curse? I see it as a blessing tho. But anyways, the rain was fun actually except for the 2E4 inmatu-rites. Anyways, after carnival was with Hyekel, Dewi and Danial. Was much fun. Then Dan went home and it was still fun. Oh well, it's not me with problems only. So Darian, bite your teeth and press on with faith, hope and tolerence! 2009 will pass really fast!
Band camp is coming, Two days, one night annoy me. Exchange in a camp, ALSO annoys me. But as long there is full attendence in my section then I think I will smile alittle. Mr Ng had taught me alot in afew words. What I need was that. Straight talking with knowledge and such. Not just any other:"Don't blast." If you don't have knowledge like such I encourage you to point your nosey nose else where.
It's about what? 20 days to SYF. I'm still not getting it from my section. What do I say? I'm tired. It's wrong but I dislike my choice piece and is more intrested in finishing up my homework and art course work and start to revise. :l Darian, make it woooork!
Thursday, March 12, 2009
#32 Scotty dosen't know! ♥
Haiyah. I really don't like 2009 man. Stress year maaan! Effects of course work finally took it's toll on me. I'm not coping well enough! I'm still stuck with so much stuff to finish for art and and and I have so much other subject homework. Esp for chinese! I'm not coping like how I should. This is bad! SYF is really annoying me too. I'm trying so hard. Practicing everyday still dosen't work. I still have bad sound, bad everything! Everyone's complaining. But do they know I'm trying? I cant help it if your instrument is easy and your section is strong so you don't have to play til your instrument is breaking, but I'm.
My instrument is not easy, trust me and I trying really hard to play like a section instead of a person with my sound cracking. Trust me, I'm really trying. Esp on top of all the stress I get from studies and course work. If you have no course work, no weak section to handle, no anything. I suggest you shut up and stop those eyes from rolling cos' I have had a long day and you are blowing my top. You are reaching my limit. One more time, I will make you really understand how I feel this time.
Saturday, March 7, 2009
#31 Make it work! ♥
Life is really unbearable recently. These few days really reminded me again how shit my secondary school life has been. Today was the music exchange with the few rock solid gold bands. It's really intimidating listening to them. They were too strong. I screwed up my overture AND Jocuri Poporale Romanesti. Yeah very unlikely for me to screw both of them together. Very clever Darian! My overture was not solid at all, it was so shaky. I was nervous I guess I trembled so much. The trembling actually did made rehersal figure G of overture actually pretty cool. But the rest was really sucky.
My Jocuri Poporale Romanesti was so shaky and rushy! I kept rushing and rushing til I was everywhere! So scary til I cant tongue making me slow down like wtheck in my fifth movement. I don't know I have so much to practice. The section is not improving. I realised how much I should stop trying so hard to make it work for them.
I really just need to depend on myself. I know my notes and rhythm and such alr. Now just work hard on maintaining composure and and the tempo part. And try to achieve volume without blasting. This is something I have to work very very very hard on. I have to achieve volume to fill the whole SCH yet not blasty. Sounds ambitious, but I'm going to try. If the section's not giving me anything, I have to take it up. Work hard Darian, have awesome horn skills so that DSA would work. Have awesome results so it will shut people up. Graduate from that cursed place fasteeeer!
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
#30 If I was a rich man ♥
OMG! Darian is actually updating. Well, I guess I actually found time. Or actually, I tried to disconnect myself from the world today. But I doubt I will ever succeed. Things have been hectic. School has became a really bad chore to me. I don't find the join in it anymore. I don't feel the rush to study for the top anymore or anything like that. But I know I have to or it will sabotage my 'O' level results. I know I want something yet, I'm not working for it. I'm an ass.
I will have to fix that. And SYF is approx a month from now. I assume I have reached a stage of Nirvana for Overture no.1 and my Jocuri Proporale Roumanesti just needs slight polishing. But, my section! My section! I'm at my wit's end alr lo. I did the silent treatment, the fierce like a mad man treatment, the be the nice guy and encourage thing.. I have tried everything! And they still sound like they are sight reading each time. It's annoying.
People are also annoying me with the 'Darian, that's not the horn sound!' I doubt mean to be arrogant, but what the hell do you know? Should I just give up and just practice like a normal member? Things would be better if I fixed them from the beggining. Not just get the section like what? Recently? Haiyah, I just need a miracle, a ray of hope. That's all.
I'm really not balancing well between my school work and band but yet I want to like do stuff for my class. But I can't cope! Haiyah, Darian ar! This is your 'O' level year man! Your last lap in secondary school. Make it work! Don't make 2007 happen again!
Music exchange this saturday, I'm sure I will impress(cheay!) - At least I mean I'm working very hard so I could impress them on saturday. But will be section actually help me with it? I mean I'm doing so much alr. All them have to do is to back me up then I will give them volume and colour to their sound, that's all! Just please section, get the notes, rhythm RIGHT!
Damn, this is a long post and damn! Food and fun fair'09 is coming too. Darian wishes he has more time. Can I? ♥ SYF07 - Best horn section in Singapore