SpaceHeroJitter: Little Arrows!

#36 Already ♥

I guess I'm blogging when I'm really free, bored and actually deserving of blogging. I find myself actually deserving of blogging now.. well, weekend+sick-days homework is 5/6th done! Hey, that's alot! I guess I will just whine infront of my teachers tomorrow about the 1/6th undone. (HEHEHE.) Ahhh..

Obvious, I have recently just stepped down from band. Man, this feeling is bad! I know I will be feeling awful without the noise from the band and the crazy cute section. :l I know I have to study after my step-down alr. I know I will miss my horn so badly. Gah! But I know I will have so much more time to myself. So it's a really bittersweet feeling. Well afterall, this four years have been bittersweet.

Sec 1 was awful, I don't considered myself a band maniac yet. Giovialita was cool, magical and still cool. But it was like just cool. I was like the worst between Marissa, Aaron and Weiyong. I was like the one who changed four sections the first day. It was really bad.. I can sort of say I worked hard for Giovialita. But I wasn't like aweeeeeesome on Giovialita.

Sec 2 was like a roller coaster ride. Beginning I didn't really cared one bit. Then Deana from St. Hilda's came to hear us. Then I really felt really intimidated and stress. I worked hard since then.. like really really reeeeeeally hard.. I guess inspiration and motivation comes from unexpected sources. Hais really blood and sweat was put into SYF'07. Silver.. I guess that's what. But SYF'07 was really all my effort lah.

Then comes stepping down of Sze Chea and Shyryn. When that happened, I then realised how much Shy was an impact to me. Like she really stresses me up and make me strive. I didn't know that til she stood down. Then came lots of problems in the section. Then solved.. then Genting. Which was like really ahh... good times..

Sec 3 comes SIBF. That's when I exceeded my limits once again. The previous time was SYF'07, then it was SIBF. I was really proud of how I was in SIBF cos' I thought I sounded pretty cool. Those awesome low notes. Yo! It was me, man! Despite the award, I was like really happy. I didn't practice as much as '07 but I guess I did alot of practicing in my mind, which actually really DOES WORK!

End of sec 3 comes Perth! Yeah, good times.. I think.. Learnt alot there.. But it was also the start of my "explosive" sound. zz. A.k.a blasting? But I was proud, improved there too. Then comes sec 4. Practice alot maan! Like everyday for SYF? Overcomed my blasting, learnt to control. Esp, with all that friday help from Mr Ng. Then came a fever.. then all that hardwork, poof! Sounded like how I sounded like in Perth, which is so wasted. Four friggin' months of hard work. Haiyaaaaaaah!

Silver, sort of upset. But this time I knew I worked hard and I'm gonna move on. This time really reminds me and makes me understand the classic quote of "It's not the end product that matters, it's the process." Cos' my end product was daaaamn shitty, but I really realised the process was pretty overwhelming and cool. ! [:

I just really hope IF I get into JC, I will kick ass. I love the french horn. As much as I hate the fact how the way I'm borned is not suitable for the horn, I'm like attracted to it. LULZ. I just really love it. So many times I told myself I'm gonna change my instrument, I keep ending up with how much I grown from sec 1 to sec 4 (not height and looks lah) in sound and such.. It just makes me think..

Gah, school day tomorrow. First day w/o band. How would it feels? I'll see if I have time to tell you about it..