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#87 Lack of

2009-10-10T10:09:00.000+08:00

Should I just give up one subject and just work towards poly? I'm really damn tired. Drinking weird things to keep myself awake all the time. Argh, bye.

#86 Fear

2009-10-03T22:19:00.002+08:00

I'm seriously going mad, soon. Did counting here and there. Did a lot of "realistic" target setting, looking at marks per paper instead of subjects now. Ms Ng makes me fear a lot upon her saying that E Math 'O's are 83.3%. As much as I hope I can be as positive and confident and work towards it, I haven't seen 83.3% in my E Math since secondary 3! In fact I haven't seen a 75% in my Art, English, Science since secondary 3. Argh, I miss those times man, where I felt like a God walking among common men.

Also counted, to the max of my capability, I can at most get R5:13. But where I want to go is R5:10. 2 CCA points may bring me down to R5:11, but seriously, with my subjects and me going off their cut off point by 1 point.. will they accept me not? Aiyh, I really stress now. I feel very stuck in chemistry, english and math, like can't improve le, stuck! Argh, I'm very scared, really scared. Please, just let me have it all. I don't want to go into somewhere where I was not deciding to go. Just like how I ended up in Woodgrove instead of Regent.

#85 Til now

2009-09-30T17:10:00.003+08:00

Okay, here's a post. But anyway, really tired. Yeah. So maybe I might just sound annoyed through out the post. If you don't know how I did for prelims.. I did a very mediocre job. Results can bring me out of secondary school but definitely not the best of places. Before I continue blogging.. Dear Sebastian Ang, do you mind if you stop resting your head on my table? Your dandruff used to be all over my table.. and now? It's in my calculator and pencil box. Really, ew, go away!

Aiyh rantzzz, when will my hair grow back? Now really damn fishy leh my hair. :( Anyhoo, aiyh schooling is just really tiring now. Really just study lo. Budden, hey! 26 more days will be the big exams, going to pwn it! :) But I very scared of it lah. Esp, english and math. Aiyh wait, I really shouldn't even be blogging. Aiyh... maybe I should stay. No Darian!! Go off, bai.

#84 Corrections

2009-09-27T00:25:00.001+08:00

What do I want? I'm very tired. I don't know. I don't know. I know the right answer. But I don't know why do I still waver. What do I really want?

#83 I'm a h0re.

2009-09-21T15:58:00.001+08:00

Hahahahahahah okay this is damn zi lian. I feel like taking photos before cutting my hair. Nuuuu, this will up my gay percentage. Meow meow, baaaaai, chemistry love.

#82 Get up on this!

2009-09-16T17:46:00.002+08:00

Whuuut, I'm bloggin yo! Okay I suck at being nigga. Anyway, yeah having prelims recently. And no paper has let me think I can get a distinction leh. Like all the paper is B3/4 feeling, then after careless mistake, I will be left with a C5/6 loh, What shiiiiiiit?

Today Maths paper most pek chek one, super easy but won't do well. Why? One day before, I could be revising and I'm just sleep and talk and talk. Stupid. A possible distinction gonez loh. Paper 2 so easy, paper 1 confirm hard or equally easy, won't average. Better hard plzzz. So I can pwn some asses, need to make up for lost marks in paper 2.

Yesturday Chemistry and Geography also super pek chek. All the ones I know, come out as really difficulty qns and all the ones I'm not very strong at, come out easy one. Same for both papers. Wahliewzz. Aiyh left three papers - E Math P1, Physics, Sci MCQ. Still got hope! These papers big percentage! Own!! Darian, everything get B3/4 nevermind! Chinese get C5/6, nevermind! Maths and Science must die die get distinctiooooooooon!!!!

If you are wondering why I'm so Singlisssh this post.. I also don't know. Hahahha byebye. Next post I act smart abit, type in really Cambridge English. Bai! Studyzzzz.

#81 Confession

2009-09-12T15:17:00.000+08:00

Hello. I have a confession. I enjoy running my hands through my curly locks. Hahah, omgosh I'm weird. Bye.

#80 Inertia

2009-09-09T23:32:00.000+08:00

Been thinking. I really wanna get over secondary school and get on to JC! Hahah I'm really excited for it. Been also thinking about location is stupid. Why limit myself to nearby schools, hahah dont care just go far far, go town also easy. Hahahah. Stop! Stop! Stop! Stop! Stooooooooooop! Darian, you think too much liao, Prelim haven't clear, let alone 'O's, heheheh. ok lah time to buck up. Heheheh, bye. Hello TYS. <3

#79 Huh?

2009-09-03T23:10:00.001+08:00

I'm confused: Jealous/Desperate/Angst/Fear/Empty. I just lost something.

#78 Before we knew we could

2009-08-28T21:11:00.004+08:00

Why am I here? Well, actual plans were to go for night classes. Instead, I went home, slept, slept some more, slept even more. Die. Hais, these few days just kept feeling drained. Hopefully this is just because I'm sick. Faster recover! Choing for the prelims! And wahlau, when I was packing my room, I finally found my long lost report book and I saw my last year L1R4/5. Wahlau, srsly not bad one loh, is can DSA/DPA one loh. Now I feel like an idiot cos I was a coward who didn't go try it out. Aiyh no choice lah. What is done is done. I just finished a paper so I'm bored and going to prove to you that guys with big noses are fieeeeeeeerce!

Fieeeerce k!

Burn!

Now, this is nothing you can beat. Fierce isn't it?

"He was that frieeeeend!" Hahaha sorry Potter, this is just a joke k!

Why Granger, was the previous picture that bad?

This is pretty fierce too.

Not fierce? But still stunning.

Therefore, guys with big noses and my height are fieeeeerce. Now shut up! Hahah meh meh. (Potter excluded tho. Soli, you're too short and you don't even have a big nose. Now gtfo and take Weasley with you, he looks far too happy up there.)

EDIT Oh wait! I just realised non of these guys are asian. Dang, I'm full of fail.

#76 Heart Heart Heartbreak

2009-08-22T14:57:00.002+08:00

Eventful week. Hits and misses. Biggest miss of all would be the C6 I have gotten for MT. I expected it but still prayed hard that I didn't get it. I could blame my oral but I guess it's only because of me lah. I was too nervous for the oral and came up with all sort of assumptions for the conversation which was actually my fault. If you are asking, I'm definitely retaking. I'm not letting this go without a fight man! Anyway! Chinese have always been my worst subject, so getting a C6 for it could be a good thing cos' other subjects would be at least a C6 and higher(Hopefully, 6 grades higher, hahah!)

Alot alot of tests this week. Did some phy/chem revision but not for math. End up screwing up my math. Argh! Nevermind. Basically I told myself this week is that this week would be the lowest I will ever go. Next week is the turning point of the graph of Darian's performance! It will skyrocket all the way to like how I was in sec3! But one thing is that I do feel still rather complacent like how I was in sec3. I don't know, I still can't change my cockiness. I know it's there and I do things. But it's still there. Oh Darian! You're not the best anymore! Be humble!

Decisions wise this week, other than the retaking. I have decide to send one of my 'O' artwork to this Adam's Apple competition. I hope Mr Isham allows tho. Cos' need teacher's signature or cannot. Heh. Another decision now is that it's definitely JC. I will just go in a take it like a fight. Just fight all the way until the seat in a prestigious university. Heh, bye.

#75 Life's choices

2009-08-09T00:53:00.002+08:00

Ever since my talk with a fellow band friend during friday, I have been thinking about my own band life too. I realized how much I hate 2009. When I had responsibilities. Call me irresponsible. I never liked having a tittle for responsibilities. I just want to do what I feel needs to be done and neglect what is made for me to do. Argh. Talking with Binni and Siyuan just now. Felt abit pathetic. Like I can just sit here and think of the past. Argh, Darian move on!

#74 What I truly feel

2009-08-08T13:08:00.000+08:00

As much as they want it back, I must say it's all gone alr. When I was secondary 1, to perform for the speech day, it's like trying to fetch a star from the sky. Now all the secondary 1s can perform for National day. Gone case liao lah. This is what I truly feel, but who cares. That place didn't groom me anyway. Goodbye.

#73 Light brown?!

2009-08-03T21:49:00.000+08:00

School. I don't know but the teachers have been very demoralizing. Esp when we try to paste up the Adam Khoo stuff, then they would say paste also no use. I don't know but aiyh just study loh. Physics test this wednesday. Memory work, hope I can apply Adam Khoo into it lah. Jiayou! Art, shit lah.

#72 Who I am hates who I've been

2009-07-29T21:19:00.000+08:00

Long time, no update. Hello. Yesterday was the first day of Adam Khoo's workshop. Woodgrovers should know that our teachers put the graduands up to it every year. They go in, but always come out like really :o and you have no idea what they are crying about. This year was my year, obviously. Yesterday, just thought it was like meh. I thought it was just going to be those "You can do it! Yuuuuush! You can!" kind of workshop. Tho one of the trainer, Candice's story sort of motivated me but meh. Then came Iunia, the Romanian! It was just pretty normal.

But dang, the second day. Tell you, you will love to hate and hate to love Adam Khoo and the trainer's k. Like I don't know how to say it. Cos' tbh, I'm still in a state of shock from today's session. It's just funny lah, everyone's just really :'(. Hahahah, okay, that's all. Tomorrow's session is until night. I just hope I have the energy to keep myself there. These few days, I'm just not sleeping well. I really look forward to the workshop and I don't want my tiredness to get in the way.

Jiayou, My brother had the same mother, father. Same living conditions, etc. I must win him. Pass =/= Future. Where he went, I will go or further!

#71 Ambition

2009-07-12T15:52:00.000+08:00

Distinction. I want them all.

#70 Hands are freezing cold

2009-07-02T21:27:00.002+08:00

School has started and it's very tiring! Got it sunk to the back of my head alr. It's choing now and dai forever. Maths is rather annoying cos' its like keep on do one lo. But I mean I know it's for my own good. Science and humans already trying to engage in class more often alr. Art, taxing. Really taxing. English, practice. Chinese? OMG, my oral's next friday! Very scared leh, first day of oral the topics so hard alr. Smooth sailing please!

Being back in school, people have been hostile to me, but of course people have been nice to me also. I'm very lazy to be like fixing and working people relations. Hahaha I know I sound very anti-social or worse, emo. But I feel like I have so much more things on my hands lo. But to you.. The way I speak chinese, it's the way I speak it. I'm not acting ang moh or what. Besides, ang moh speak chinese also not liddat k? I'm just not well versed in that subject. And you, using certain slangs does not mean I'm trying to be of a certain race. I believe it comes naturally when you reside in Singapore okay?

Leave me alone. ): Anyway, dreams of NYJC.. Hmm, keeping on hold first. I just think maybe it's just not the right intuition for me. Don't think, just study. I think that's the solution for now.

#69 魔法にかけられて

2009-06-21T19:04:00.002+08:00

Happy father's day! I'm just staying at home cos' my dad just wants good old rest. Besides my brother is fuming cos' we gotten about his birthday. Aiyo, sorry lah! :x Annnnnyway, just realised my Sims 2 discs aren't with me! Gosh, so much for wanting to play them for the last time before selling them. Having this computer back is wierd cos' everything is gone and w/e is saved is a very old old backup on my music files I used to have and most of them are my band music. Not rock band, but wind band! W/e, say that I'm a dork.

Ahh, so it's father's day. What are you guys doing today? I'm pretty such nothing as boring as what I'm doing! I'm moving pretty soon, domain wise. I will always love you SpaceHeroJitter! I really like this domain, gaaah, what to do, what to do? And also I cleaned up my livejournal and made it a schedule thingum for me. Friends only as usual. Just so you know. I want to play badminton, bye.

#68 Hymn to the Infinite Sky!

2009-06-19T12:04:00.000+08:00

"Poof!"

#67 I knew you were trouble

2009-06-16T16:21:00.009+08:00

Well, I didnt have a picscam in ages..

Uh no!

Utter facepalm

Say: Woah, woah, woah!

Up, down, down, up.

Miss Murder-G!

Okay, this will be the first pic scam in ages and a last pic scam to be in SpaceHeroJitter. For the stills(and more) they will be on facebook.

#66 Not this time

2009-06-15T18:38:00.002+08:00

My sixty-sixth post and not posting it at my own computer. I really should be moving to this new url I have alr but my computer just keeps constantly crashes on me. So annoying, go and fix it? Come back with like all my files gone(including the Perth stuff!) and it's still not fixed yet! Beeeeeeeeetch, sent it back and now using Glady's lappy lo. "Eyer, my shoelace, I know right?" - Gladys' drama.

Aiyh, holidays gone halfway liao, my revision shouldn't even be considered revision! Most of the time is like spent on art. Went to Esplanade again this morning. If he is going to send me back, dang I'm going to cuuuuuut him! *Rage! Aiyh, better use the laptop to do pratical stuff. Kbai, I will be back and I shall complete every single commitment I have on the net so I can say goodbye!

#65 Just take one bite!

2009-06-11T11:49:00.001+08:00

This is too awesome, having the song alr. I cannot wait for the music video man. This is definitely the best of both worlds.

#64 37.1kB/s

2009-06-06T22:18:00.002+08:00

Okay, here's the plan. Darian go to Esplanade fast tomorrow, take really awesome pictures, run back home before dinnertime, start photoshopping, create as much artwork as possible and submit all that to Mr Isham before 10pm. Yes! Pure genius, only if I had 48 hours a day, unfortunately not. I have seriously no idea how to pull it off but I will try pulling anyway. =="

Today was pretty fun at home because I spent time gossiping about people online then I finished a Harry Potter game! Yep, I finished Order of the Phoenix. I never expect myself to finish it so fast k. Prizoner of Azkaban took me 3 days, Goblet of Fire was never finished, Chamber of Secrets took me 6 months and Philospher's Stone took me 1 month. Finishing Order of the Phoenix is pure pro-ness. Hahah, I'm such a dork with my Harry Potter.

Anyway currently downloading Sims 3, hoping to do a review on it. And dang, is it like going daaang slow? Yes. Aler-merk! And oh oh, submitted a skin, check it out lah. (Gives You Hell) I'm definitely making a new layout but should I submit this to blogskins? This isn't super nice lah to be honest. Tell me about in the tagboard!

#63 Whoever wins, we'll lose

2009-06-05T23:24:00.002+08:00

My back hurts! Yes and most prolly from sitting in the lab for too long. Those stools are indeed a chore having to sit on them. I have to go to Esplanade this weekend again, take lots of photos and do alot alot of art. Do I like art, no. It's so tiring. I would so prefer burrying myself in textbooks and notes rather then going to the town and having squeeze the train with wierd people who smell.

My brother is currently away in the Philipines for leisure. He's coming back next wednesday. And, he brought the camera with him! Now now, what the hell am I going take picture with? Aiyh art just annoys me. So, MT please get a sexy grade so I may allow myself to suck pretty much in art which I would love to!

It's starting to annoy me when I hear those sec1/2/3 go like:"Alamak, holiday so boring!" while I scramble through my way through the holidays with so much work at hand. Like woah, do something constructive, enjoy while you can! It's no fun to be at this stage now. I'm such a ranter. I'm so unsatisfied.

#62 Limitations

2009-06-03T22:54:00.002+08:00

Arghhhhhh, I feel so stupid siah. Looking through the website of the JC of my intrest, opening up the applications for DSA and me unable to apply. Why can't I apply? Oh, let's see. Because my results suck? Would I even have the face to go apply? Aiyh, feel so shit now siah. I really feel like dying now.

#61 All the cash in the world

2009-06-01T17:16:00.002+08:00

MT 'O' is considered conquered. Worked pretty hard for it already. Now, it's about what grade am I going to retake and what greade am I not going to retake. I just hope I can own alittle in MT so I can slack alittle in my art. Well, I just feel so good about my papers that when that happens, I normally don't do well. But just hope that this time will be different k?

With my MT 'O's done, I'm often asked what's next. To answer that, eh hello? Not like I no more 'O's already right? So basically I want to try to just finish up my art by the end of this month and then study really hard for my science and humanities. So it ain't really holidays for me. But srsly, I woken up! I sweeeeear! Hahah, okay you judge.

#60 Why didn't you join the team?

2009-05-31T20:02:00.002+08:00

Oh dang, tomorrow's the day. I'm not freaking cos I believe I did enough revision alr. But I might just freak tomorrow. Today was spent with Aaron and Michelle. We realised we could do much but set Bao Zhang questions for each other. I believed it was quite useful. I just can't wait to get done with it. I sooo wanna clear it now!

But hmm, what's after MT 'O's? Millions of art coach. Dammit. I hate art. It's the gay-est subject ever. I regret like not doing anything about being in art. Whatever, my other subjects are my piority. Art, I will just see how it goes. Just let it be a B3? I don't care about it anymore. English, math, science and humans are what truly gonna get me there. Four distinctions? Hahah.

Basically, just plreaskezz, wish me luck. I just want to get done with it and not retake. Let it be a B3 please please. Only then I won't retake and I will study very very hard for my other subjects. I promise, I really do. So please please? Don't let the paper be everything I have not studied about.

#59 You're fragile and strong

2009-05-29T20:08:00.001+08:00

It's so near. I just want it so badly. I'm working so hard already and yet I still don't feel the afirmation that I will definitely get it. I'm really scared. I want it so much, I'm scared I won't get it. Oh please come to me.

#58 Never miss a beat!

2009-05-28T20:41:00.003+08:00

MT 'O's is next monday and man am I scared? Hell yah! I really do not dare to think what happens if I don't do well. I'm just only thinking about doing well for it. But ahhhh, I don't know! Anyways, I guess it's confirmed, ACJC Band tune in together with Aaron and maybe Daisy and Ammy-Raeee. I have never been to a tune in but I'm definitely excited about it. Aiyah, better don't anticipate too much of it later, oh my!

Anyway, today I dropped by band for a second or maybe, more than a second lah. :P It's nice to see my section but it's unpleasant to see how things have became for some. I'm sorry if I had to reprimand you today. But you have to understand the position I'm in. I held so much hope for you, I gave you my horn, a good mouthpiece and a good part to shine. But what you did today pretty much dissapointed me. I really didn't wanted to reprimand you. Please, grow.

#57 Why are these lights so bright?

2009-05-26T16:07:00.002+08:00

Wtheeeeck? Darian blogging at 4pm? Nope, I didn't skip MT 'O' intensive, it's just that something really bad happened in school now. Alot of people aren't coming to school for health reasons. And as I mentioned in my previous post, my class alone is like really bad alr. The teachers decided not to continue the intensive after school today and wanted us to go home a rest. Afterall, the final battle is next monday. We have to be in the best condition to take the paper.

It's currently 49 days to Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. Muahahaha! If you were to notice, I don't talk much in my posts anymore. Here, I will tell you why. Cos' the only main point in everyday is just MT 'O' intensive! Sounds rather no-lifer but that really is it. I'm doing nothing else than intensive-ing. This is super stupid but srsly I just can't wait to graduate form secondary school. Oh well.

#56 Sometimes you have to loose

2009-05-25T20:00:00.002+08:00

Man oh man! Today's MT 'O' intensive is so unproductive. Ended up playing this control-your-laughter-or-dai game with Huai Qing, Michelle and Aaron. Felt kind of bad now cos we really should have listened. Oh god I love my section but yo dudes! Lift up your horns, lazy kids! Anyway, I somehow managed to get Sarah to go on a outing this june. I wouldn't call it a Blogskins people cos we are both pretty afraid of that place. Hahha, we will see how it goes.

And it's really scary. So many people are falling sick in class. About 2 people had fever last week. Today, three people were down with fever, one with 39.1^C and two were sent home including the one with that crazy temperature. The whole H1N1 thing is scaring me. Esp, the cases in Japan started from a high school. I just don't want to fall ill on the year I take my major exams. Yeah, yeah I get to have more time to revise. But that would also mean I will enter the workforce later and my syllabus might be cut down by the government to ensure we graduate on time? I don't know. I'm worried, as usual.

#55 All you need is ($)

2009-05-22T22:44:00.003+08:00

Yep, a new layout indeed. I really like this. I feel so awesome. And I can't believe in this. I'm falling in love with chinese. Seriously, this four days of doing chinese, I'm starting to really really like it! But anyhoot, I'm about to be done with it very soon. Tomorrow, there's gonna be MT 'O' intensive again. Afterwards would be going to the library to continue my own intensive. Hope everything would work out.

Basically today my day today went really well. It was the normal intensive at first. Second half, we went to the library then keep doing paper 1s. Then then then, I kept going to the toilet! Hahahha, whuuuut? To play the horn lah! Then went home with Azri, Jieshi and Daisy lah. Alot to say. Oh well, talking with bandmates are always much more fun. IJC? NYJC? or ITE? Hahahha, just kidding about the ITE part. But now someone else is "seducing" me to go ACJC. No way man! I so clever meh!

#54 No boundaries!

2009-05-21T20:18:00.002+08:00

I'm definitely getting used to MT 'O' intensive and I really want to get there! I swayed alittle in the beginning but I guess now my feet is firm on the ground alright. If only I could be like this for art. Got my mark sheet. Definitely unlike what my mark sheets used to look like. I prevailed but I hate this feeling but I guess it's a mistake I have to learn from. I'm ready to those whatevers that is coming straight towards me. Just gonna conquer them all one by one!

Woooooh! Kris Allen won American Idol and boy am I happy! It really annoys me when people insult Kris capabilities when he won. No one insulted Adam manz. So put your votes where your mouth is. And argh, I was just infront. You can actually look me in the eye and say nothing then walk away. Bull shit.

#53 Days of doom

2009-05-20T18:38:00.002+08:00

First two days of MT intensive and it has drained me completely alr. The paper 1 doing actually have started to grow on me and is pretty fun actually. But the comprehension drilling? God! It annoys me so much man. Staring at the passages just really make me sleepy esp 5N1 is so stuffy. Like sauna siah. Like wtheck lo, call us to do papers from Tanjong Katong Girls and Catholic High. Cat High is centre of excellence for chinese lei? Somemore my chinese is made out of fail so obviously I struggled.

Was thinking of going late to school tomorrow with Jorin. But must see how first lah. MT 'O's coming lei. :l I can't wait til MT 'O's to be over cos' I will indefinitely do something about it. But of course, after MT 'O's will be the june intensive programme? With four weeks of hols, I don't thinking I will just be intensive-ing with the school. I will be doing my own intensive. Each week for each subject. E Math, Physics, Chemistry and Geography. And where am I going to get time for art? Aler-mak!

#52 When it comes?

2009-05-18T18:34:00.004+08:00

Hmm? So my MT 'O' intensive starts tomorrow. I'm pretty determined but I'm still fearing. Fearing of the outcome, fearing of my decisions made, fearing of my instability to stay focused. Ahh, fear. Today, had to stay back in school for Poly-talks. Just went for the Ngee Ann: Business/Accountancy School one. I could have went for more, but I didn't want to. I was too tired and hungry!

I often wonder what I want? Obviously, my subject combination is going to kill me in JC. But the only reason why I want to go to JC is because partly my parents and I really want to make a point. Like it really disheartens me when people think I can't? I know I can! But why do it? Just to show them? Poly is pretty much what is carved for me. But will I enjoy that life? I love school uniforms? Hahah, yes I'm a dork. But I just love having a timetable and having a compulsary CCA and have points awarded for going to CCA.

It's all about what I want in the end I guess? My parents and what people think of me should not be an excuse at all. Going to JC fufills the part of proofing to people and continue the lifestyle I would prefer. Going to Poly would mean getting settled earlier and doing something more of my intrest in focus. I hate this, esp when people think: "Since when Darian has a choice to make between JC and Poly?". That makes me want to go to JC more to show them. But I know that decision making is wrong cos' it becomes their decision. I don't know.

Cheers! Harry Potter is coming to town!

#51: Black-flag: Attack!

2009-05-17T22:30:00.002+08:00

Roses are red, violets are blue.
French horn rocks, because of you!

Ahh, wgsfhorn'09 ♥!

#50 Heartless!

2009-05-15T22:14:00.002+08:00

Oh my god! I'm so excited for American Idol! Tell you ar, Kris better win you'know? I almost died when Danny was out on American Idol and Allison lost America's Next Top Model on the same day k? Aiyah I was wondering if all this tv is right. Afterall I did horrid for my MYEs. Do I even deserved to "breathe". Aiyah, tomorrow is POP!

Gaaaah, today was so akward man. I see Daisy got invites for her section then of course I feel ): and that's when I barged into Liyana's class and went "Oi! Why we no invites one siah, sad lei!" Then, LULZ. She was making it! Hahahah. Tomorrow is definitely exciting. But I really dont see the joy of it much. Except for really seeing my section.

Actually this time, I really saw who were my true friends. I have everything you don't have. Of course, I'm lack of something you are full of. Desperation. Kris FTW!

#49 Fallen off a highway

2009-05-14T18:26:00.002+08:00

Fuck! What a expressive word to start a post. Maybe. But dang! How could Teyona-"Rex" wins America's Next Top Model? She looks like a dinosaur man! So not high fashion! Wtheck, her walk was so weak! Her photos are so sleepy. Tyra, tyra girl you are blind alr isit? Nevermind, Alison has a awesome career infront of her. Muahahah.

Of course, first day after a marking day is where your exam paper gets thrown back to you. Only difference is how graceful the paper is thrown to you. Unfortunately, my papers were thrown back to me in a horrid manner mixed up with of course insults and dissapointment. Wtheck? I failed my sciences. Hmm, but I sweared I didn't feel much. It was the first time I failed my sciences since sec3 and I seriously felt nothing. I guess I expected it.

Yep, I wasn't preparing for it at all. So basically, I knew I deserved it. Then came my math which I failed too. It was the second time I failed math since sec3 also. Math was my forte! What the hell happened man? Oh! I know! I really haven't been revising. And, I know it myself. I felt deserving of this sucky grade. It was my choice. I guess I had a ego and thought I was the best.

I'm definitely not allowing myself to be positive about this this time. I'm not gonna say things like: "Oh, things can only get better from here". No! I'm gonna treat myself brutally. I failed myself terribly, as a human. What the fuck is wrong with you Tan Jian Yu, Darian?

#48 Chris Crooker moment

2009-05-11T21:53:00.002+08:00

Daaamn, I'm so angry! I was looking at the tv guide for channel 8 yesturday and what do I find? If I'm not wrong from 12noon to 6 in the evening, they are all encoring Joanne Peh's dramas? Whuuut? Just because she won that f award. God! She just merely got a good role and just alittle display of talent in the show and she got it. I feel really like daaaang! Mediacorp is so realistic in such a dumb way. Getting that award dosen't mean if you encore her dramas you will get aweeeesome viewship ratings. Mediacorp fails.

Anyway, band resumes this thursday for my juniors. I have to go visit them. Miss them too much lah. Esp my darling section! (: Hope they weren't slacking. But of course, no pressure lah since band has been on hiatus. I just want to play my horn you know? Hahah. I thought of it already. If there is a need for a fast and slow piece for the DSA audition it will be Passacaglia and Chanson Du Toreador from "Carmen Fantasy". This sounds ambitious but I might just end up doing Titanic and Blue Ridge Saga. Hahahah!

Saraah! I know you are on tv! Don't think I don't know! And and, the final of The Amazing Race! I haven't watch. Should I watch it now? I have school tomorrow you know? Oh my, who the heck won! Should I? Should?

#47 Pirates > Star Wars

2009-05-10T00:50:00.002+08:00

Today, or rather yesturday was so unproductive. Was just sitting here playing Harry Potter on PC the whole day. I'm such a dork. I'm soooo excited for Harry Potter lah. Soon, every post I have here will be about Harry Potter. Ass! Just finished watching the documentary about 2012:Doomsday. I'm pretty worried. Like it seems like we, people really betrayed Earth. I just want to die without suffering. Scary but then it's nature.

I really should be sleepy now. Kthxbai.

#46 Mission: Play

2009-05-08T23:30:00.002+08:00

Yay. Exams are 'sort of' over. One more paper. But for that paper just find one day to do all the TYS MCQ. Yay! Give myself a break then choing MT 'O's! Once I reached home today, I played Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban on PC. That's when I realised Jie Shi plays Harry Potter games on PC too! Yay! I'm neither a dork or ghay. Hahaha. Today super gossip-y with her about internet people. He-he.

I really can't wait for -Half Blood Prince to come out man. Warner Bros so lied to us last year. Then I just made a awesome discovery today. One of my friends in blogskins is a BFF of my cousin, Hui Han. Wtheck. Wieeerd! And and, maple is so addicted with season 2. With like 5 "new" jobs, two new towns(Time Temple/Ellin Forest). Daaang! But nevermind, Harry Potter is cooler. Shall play til I drop.

#45 One step forward, two steps back

2009-05-06T11:32:00.002+08:00

Oh god! I really don't know how I did for my mid years so far. Chinese was so scary but I really want to get a pass this time or it will be game over for me for MT 'O's. I'm so scared cos' the cloze passage was so x_x Aiyah scary. And what? Today's SS. I planned so well and I finished my SBQ with satisfaction on time. And just enough time left to do SEQ essays and I just had to waste my time thinking and planning about what to write. Idoit! And so, I have no time for conclusions. Kewl. Now, I really have no idea how I did for SS.

EDIT./ Wthell? Yeah I'm here again. I'm so bored. I severly dislike physics. Yup! I certainly do! I'm so excited for tomorrow's math, I just dying to !@#$ it. Heh! First day of the SYF is over and I'm dying to be there. Catholic JC got their GWH. Woah, a Temasek a often gold band became silver today. MI and IJC got a bronze. But hey! It's their first year! Aiyah, I maybe wanna go hear tomorrow after exams. I don't know! :l Afterall, ahem. I have exams.

And I think you are inmature.

#44 Invisible and indivisible!

2009-05-04T18:59:00.001+08:00

Well I screwed up my art. But gah I don't really ____ about art anyway. Good news is a feel gooood about geography. I don't know. It's just everything just comes out like verbal vomit. It dosen't really need that much thinking. But with the mention of that, it sort of worries me if I was really thinking like a 0.1% most of the time during the paper. Cos' it just comes out! Even all the sarcasm and crude language.

I just threw it in to describe the countries and the soft engineering methods. No, I'm no mental, I just have a problem with soft engineering methods. Hard engineering methods for the win! I just really wish it turns out well this time. My humanities dissapointed me the previous commontest. I thought I had it all in my bag. But in the end I written out of point. It must not happen this time! I actually praise China lei! So must give me A okaaay? God, I'm despret.

I suppose the next few days would be crazy. Tomorrow's chinese, maintain composure, I should be fine. Then comes social science on wednesday which I decide to do selective revision. Cos' I really didn't listen most of the time during the part about Iraq, Iran and another middle east country. It was something about conflict. Gah, I do conflict better in Sri Lanka. Heh!

Thursday and friday will be crazy! Or rather wednesday and thursday. I have my maths paper ii and physics on thurs and maths paper i and chemistry on friday. Which is "daaaamn!". In math, I don't really perform well in those questions which you need to think out of the box and they are all in paper ii. And, of the two sciences I suck better at physics. So, goodbye! I need to make it work!

Ultraviolet baby!

#43 To infinity and beyond!

2009-04-30T19:21:00.002+08:00

I went to school today. Yes. And that's when people start going:"OH-MY-FUCKING-GOD DAAAARIAN OMGZZZ OMGZZZ" -Drama- "LULZZZZZ HAHAHAHA Your hair enhances the size of your nose!" Whuuuuut? I didn't think it was thaaaaaat bad lah! ): Oh well, today despite being so tired. I actually felt a rush to like mug! Next week would be all the exams all the way til the end. I have to work hard! It's not anyone's exams or chance in DSA. It's my own! Just push maaan! Push all the way til MT 'O's then I can have a slight breather.

I really wonder how's the section gonna do after the exam break. I worried for them. Since a big performance is coming up. It's not so cheap speech day thing at the hall but it's like the 10th year aniversary performance. Haiyah, it's worrying when they do even worrying things.

Anyway to sum things up, for myself.. Darian! Push! You once had it, it will only come back to you when you work just as hard previously! Jia You! My chinese sucks, my aims are high but my potential is low, but no matter how many people laugh at me, I must preserve! Press on, with hope, faith and spirit! To infinity and beyond!

#42 Kelly Tang

2009-04-29T19:16:00.002+08:00

Today, was my MYE english paper. For my paper one, I couldn't be more satisfied. I felt really good about my essay. Hahah it was about Kelly Tang and his father. Duh! Of course I don't know anything about Kelly Tang and his father! It was all made up. Situational writting, it wasn't my best. But I'm sure it was a strike. The question was one I did two times and had about five model essays on it. So woohoo!

Paper two is just another one of those english papers which you believe is of average difficulty but when the results come out, they normally astonish you. Sometimes in a good way and mostly in a bad way. You just don't know what happens. But I'm keeping my fingers cross. I defintely want a ONE in english this time. I failed to get it last EOY by one mark! Please, please, please!

Kelly Tang! Thanks for the last minute inspiration during my examination! I luuurbeaszszz you! LULZ, kidding. With all due respect Dr. Tang!

#41 Inspiration in many forms

2009-04-26T19:54:00.002+08:00

Let's see. This weekends ought to be a bore until somewhere in between of saturday, May En texted me! We ended up texting all the way til night, or rather the next morning by 40 plus minutes. I really didn't expect that since we weren't talking for quite some time. We were only talking about after 'O's. It was the only topic we were truely intrested in. But man, three more days to first paper. I still feel I don't have the speed like last year.

My english essays are getting better. Sometimes summary's pretty good. But my comprehension still sucking lei! Hais, I guess my strategy would be to just do awesome for paper 1, then summary just really try try try to rephrase the entire shit. Then just leave my comprehension alone. Really impossible to work on. Chinese on the other hand is suprizing as I find my comprehension getting cooler! Hahah, so chinese really can practice? Yes!

My chemistry, geography and social science, I'm confident.. with the sec 3 topics. Physics, I'm just really thinking how I'm gonna get thru it. Hopefully, lessons from Gladys would help? Art, aiyah. Bullshit lo. Last time when Ms Nana is around I can get A*, Ms Phand and Ms Lai took over became B3. I wonder what that Isham is gonna give me, he's not very fond of me. Neither I'm, for him tho.

I don't know what is in for me this MYEs, but for I know I only have what I aquired from sec 3. It's my only asset. I have nothing I'm confident with in sec 4. This will cost me much, esp in physics where Mr Junus always set the most related to the recent chapters papers. So I'm pretty worries. Haiyah. Dear God, let me pull through this time, on account on last year.

P.S./ Rahrrrrrrrr! I wanna play my horn! ):< I want to go to the field and BAAAAAAM!

#39 Run, run, run!

2009-04-18T16:00:00.002+08:00

Eight days to the mid-year examinations and five weeks to the MT 'O' levels. I guess this is the part where I start studying. So I guess I will see you in 6 weeks, I will be back! Or maybe I will just come back if I have like thirty minutes to spare. I heard so much from both seniors and juniors of the band. It's head-desk-ful. I guess I will just watch how things turn out to be. Cos' afterall the best way to learn is to do it yourself. I won't be like the others. Ahhh, I guess I'm off. People in my class are dropping art and it's making me upset. :l Gah, anyways, bye! Just gotta run away from prejudice and pessimist. They are annoying.

#38 Take my shoes off, throw up!

2009-04-16T18:08:00.006+08:00

I'm so tired. People should stop talking because it's not like I can't hear. I understand you are going by the law of "talking being someone's back". However, if you are talking so loud, what's the point? LULZ. Seriously? Hanging with Aaron and Marissa was liberating. We did this today:

We made it like Aaron first, Marissa mid-range and me, bass. It's something I really learnt to enjoy. I can't believe how I complained about it when I was in sec 2. But playing with them is just something I enjoy. School is just hectic right now and I'm tired. I'm not used to it. This life I'm living now and it's not even me.

#37 Days move so slowly.

2009-04-14T17:30:00.001+08:00

God, this week, the days are like so f slow! It's only tuesday, I'm already doing the late coming thing. Every hour in school is like doing worksheets, learning new concept, go through answers. There's nothing slacky about lessons man. Everytime I go home it's so exhausting, I sleep. And there's so much homework! God! I want my computer to be fixed! I want to photoshop!

P.S./ P.O.P is coming, god! Heroic Saga please please!

#36 Already

2009-04-12T21:44:00.002+08:00

I guess I'm blogging when I'm really free, bored and actually deserving of blogging. I find myself actually deserving of blogging now.. well, weekend+sick-days homework is 5/6th done! Hey, that's alot! I guess I will just whine infront of my teachers tomorrow about the 1/6th undone. (HEHEHE.) Ahhh..

Obvious, I have recently just stepped down from band. Man, this feeling is bad! I know I will be feeling awful without the noise from the band and the crazy cute section. :l I know I have to study after my step-down alr. I know I will miss my horn so badly. Gah! But I know I will have so much more time to myself. So it's a really bittersweet feeling. Well afterall, this four years have been bittersweet.

Sec 1 was awful, I don't considered myself a band maniac yet. Giovialita was cool, magical and still cool. But it was like just cool. I was like the worst between Marissa, Aaron and Weiyong. I was like the one who changed four sections the first day. It was really bad.. I can sort of say I worked hard for Giovialita. But I wasn't like aweeeeeesome on Giovialita.

Sec 2 was like a roller coaster ride. Beginning I didn't really cared one bit. Then Deana from St. Hilda's came to hear us. Then I really felt really intimidated and stress. I worked hard since then.. like really really reeeeeeally hard.. I guess inspiration and motivation comes from unexpected sources. Hais really blood and sweat was put into SYF'07. Silver.. I guess that's what. But SYF'07 was really all my effort lah.

Then comes stepping down of Sze Chea and Shyryn. When that happened, I then realised how much Shy was an impact to me. Like she really stresses me up and make me strive. I didn't know that til she stood down. Then came lots of problems in the section. Then solved.. then Genting. Which was like really ahh... good times..

Sec 3 comes SIBF. That's when I exceeded my limits once again. The previous time was SYF'07, then it was SIBF. I was really proud of how I was in SIBF cos' I thought I sounded pretty cool. Those awesome low notes. Yo! It was me, man! Despite the award, I was like really happy. I didn't practice as much as '07 but I guess I did alot of practicing in my mind, which actually really DOES WORK!

End of sec 3 comes Perth! Yeah, good times.. I think.. Learnt alot there.. But it was also the start of my "explosive" sound. zz. A.k.a blasting? But I was proud, improved there too. Then comes sec 4. Practice alot maan! Like everyday for SYF? Overcomed my blasting, learnt to control. Esp, with all that friday help from Mr Ng. Then came a fever.. then all that hardwork, poof! Sounded like how I sounded like in Perth, which is so wasted. Four friggin' months of hard work. Haiyaaaaaaah!

Silver, sort of upset. But this time I knew I worked hard and I'm gonna move on. This time really reminds me and makes me understand the classic quote of "It's not the end product that matters, it's the process." Cos' my end product was daaaamn shitty, but I really realised the process was pretty overwhelming and cool. ! [:

I just really hope IF I get into JC, I will kick ass. I love the french horn. As much as I hate the fact how the way I'm borned is not suitable for the horn, I'm like attracted to it. LULZ. I just really love it. So many times I told myself I'm gonna change my instrument, I keep ending up with how much I grown from sec 1 to sec 4 (not height and looks lah) in sound and such.. It just makes me think..

Gah, school day tomorrow. First day w/o band. How would it feels? I'll see if I have time to tell you about it..

#35 Have a cow!

2009-03-21T22:15:00.001+08:00

Since 'O' level is the final goal, I think all the secondary school shit gimmicks weren't all. Not much a need to waste time on them I suppose. Anyway, talk is cheap but mind what you say. Oh Miley.

#34 Your talk is cheap

2009-03-20T10:43:00.002+08:00

I want to be smarter. But I'm not. Sucks how the world rejects a stupid person. I will never be good enough.

#33 I have done unjustice to myself.

2009-03-15T20:06:00.002+08:00

Carnival. It has left me with a broken nail, burnt finger, sunburn and a back ache. I'm left with $5 of unspent coupons. But what to do? Helping out in the stall allows me to witness inmaturity and steadiness in different classmates. Izyan and Joo Tat were doing so fine with the making of the drinks. Ms Ng and Shirly worked so hard for the selling of drinks. Jian Ting were practically selling the roof of. The rest? They were pretty much sitting around.

When it wasn't my shift, I was mostly with Amirah, Danial and Khalis with fellow Pasir Ris and Juying band mates sometimes with Chiu Hwa and Dewi too. That was when we realised how boring the carnival was if you weren't working. Hahah, you gotta work it! Carnival has really made me relax alittle. Allows me to stop worrying so much abit. But then again, when will I 100% let go of all my problems and leave them to other people or resolve them?

Last ten minutes of the carnival came the rain. A blessing or a curse? I see it as a blessing tho. But anyways, the rain was fun actually except for the 2E4 inmatu-rites. Anyways, after carnival was with Hyekel, Dewi and Danial. Was much fun. Then Dan went home and it was still fun. Oh well, it's not me with problems only. So Darian, bite your teeth and press on with faith, hope and tolerence! 2009 will pass really fast!

Band camp is coming, Two days, one night annoy me. Exchange in a camp, ALSO annoys me. But as long there is full attendence in my section then I think I will smile alittle. Mr Ng had taught me alot in afew words. What I need was that. Straight talking with knowledge and such. Not just any other:"Don't blast." If you don't have knowledge like such I encourage you to point your nosey nose else where.

It's about what? 20 days to SYF. I'm still not getting it from my section. What do I say? I'm tired. It's wrong but I dislike my choice piece and is more intrested in finishing up my homework and art course work and start to revise. :l Darian, make it woooork!

#32 Scotty dosen't know!

2009-03-12T20:29:00.002+08:00

Haiyah. I really don't like 2009 man. Stress year maaan! Effects of course work finally took it's toll on me. I'm not coping well enough! I'm still stuck with so much stuff to finish for art and and and I have so much other subject homework. Esp for chinese! I'm not coping like how I should. This is bad! SYF is really annoying me too. I'm trying so hard. Practicing everyday still dosen't work. I still have bad sound, bad everything! Everyone's complaining. But do they know I'm trying? I cant help it if your instrument is easy and your section is strong so you don't have to play til your instrument is breaking, but I'm.

My instrument is not easy, trust me and I trying really hard to play like a section instead of a person with my sound cracking. Trust me, I'm really trying. Esp on top of all the stress I get from studies and course work. If you have no course work, no weak section to handle, no anything. I suggest you shut up and stop those eyes from rolling cos' I have had a long day and you are blowing my top. You are reaching my limit. One more time, I will make you really understand how I feel this time.

#31 Make it work!

2009-03-07T22:29:00.002+08:00

Life is really unbearable recently. These few days really reminded me again how shit my secondary school life has been. Today was the music exchange with the few rock solid gold bands. It's really intimidating listening to them. They were too strong. I screwed up my overture AND Jocuri Poporale Romanesti. Yeah very unlikely for me to screw both of them together. Very clever Darian! My overture was not solid at all, it was so shaky. I was nervous I guess I trembled so much. The trembling actually did made rehersal figure G of overture actually pretty cool. But the rest was really sucky.

My Jocuri Poporale Romanesti was so shaky and rushy! I kept rushing and rushing til I was everywhere! So scary til I cant tongue making me slow down like wtheck in my fifth movement. I don't know I have so much to practice. The section is not improving. I realised how much I should stop trying so hard to make it work for them.

I really just need to depend on myself. I know my notes and rhythm and such alr. Now just work hard on maintaining composure and and the tempo part. And try to achieve volume without blasting. This is something I have to work very very very hard on. I have to achieve volume to fill the whole SCH yet not blasty. Sounds ambitious, but I'm going to try. If the section's not giving me anything, I have to take it up. Work hard Darian, have awesome horn skills so that DSA would work. Have awesome results so it will shut people up. Graduate from that cursed place fasteeeer!

#30 If I was a rich man

2009-03-04T19:11:00.003+08:00

OMG! Darian is actually updating. Well, I guess I actually found time. Or actually, I tried to disconnect myself from the world today. But I doubt I will ever succeed. Things have been hectic. School has became a really bad chore to me. I don't find the join in it anymore. I don't feel the rush to study for the top anymore or anything like that. But I know I have to or it will sabotage my 'O' level results. I know I want something yet, I'm not working for it. I'm an ass.

I will have to fix that. And SYF is approx a month from now. I assume I have reached a stage of Nirvana for Overture no.1 and my Jocuri Proporale Roumanesti just needs slight polishing. But, my section! My section! I'm at my wit's end alr lo. I did the silent treatment, the fierce like a mad man treatment, the be the nice guy and encourage thing.. I have tried everything! And they still sound like they are sight reading each time. It's annoying.

People are also annoying me with the 'Darian, that's not the horn sound!' I doubt mean to be arrogant, but what the hell do you know? Should I just give up and just practice like a normal member? Things would be better if I fixed them from the beggining. Not just get the section like what? Recently? Haiyah, I just need a miracle, a ray of hope. That's all.

I'm really not balancing well between my school work and band but yet I want to like do stuff for my class. But I can't cope! Haiyah, Darian ar! This is your 'O' level year man! Your last lap in secondary school. Make it work! Don't make 2007 happen again!

Music exchange this saturday, I'm sure I will impress(cheay!) - At least I mean I'm working very hard so I could impress them on saturday. But will be section actually help me with it? I mean I'm doing so much alr. All them have to do is to back me up then I will give them volume and colour to their sound, that's all! Just please section, get the notes, rhythm RIGHT!

Damn, this is a long post and damn! Food and fun fair'09 is coming too. Darian wishes he has more time. Can I?
♥ SYF07 - Best horn section in Singapore

#29 응급실

2009-01-11T02:11:00.000+08:00

I was so stupid.

#28 Life is shit.

2009-01-09T22:54:00.003+08:00

There will always be one person to be there to take anyway things I enjoy or have for only awhile. I'm seriously in no mood and not motivated to study for any shit that is coming my way right now or to work to achieve whatever I am made to achieve right now. Monsters, I hate you. I'm merely human.
Fuck you! Stop lying to me!

#27 Crush crush faint

2009-01-04T11:18:00.002+08:00

This first three days of the new year, I feel rather useful. The band stuff and all. I feel so useful that I am robbed and used. Thanks ar! Well, go die. ):<

#26 Your light is ultraviolet! <3

2009-01-01T18:00:00.002+08:00

Woah, that was 2008 done. It's a pretty big chapter. The year where I'm in a new class, new uniform and pretty much lots of new stuff lah. The term started alright, it was the Faire La Fete concert, pretty awesome. Seniors step down and then commontest 1. First term was pretty awesome, results and all. But that's when I hated my new class like really alot. ):

Term two was to me the mistake hole. I did alot of wrong things, to cause chaos and distrust among myself and other people. It was stupid. Mid year exams however were pretty awesome tho. But it was really hectic, gah bad time. Stupid.

Term three was pretty quiet. But dang! I did so well for that commontest but then still got top 2 only. Ass! ): Term 3 was also Sibf term. Hmm, I thought it was awesome, improved alot thru it, both Dublin Dances and Passacaglia made me benifit alot. Dublin in sound, Passacaglia in my new found niche, low notes. However what we got in return was a big turn off. Oh well, it was a lesson for my juniors I guess?

Term four was more of the fix what you did wrong term? But I was too occupied with everything else til I didn't care much about my studies. Perth list was also out then, many of the band members were dissapointed. Aaron had to go to tpet section. It was confusing. Anyhoo, academic wise, got a top1 but huh? My results were awful that term! But anyway only 16 of us stayed in the class, the rest were demoted.

Gah, I don't really think this is 'the' summary, but I'm lazy to blog anyway, just be proud of me that I actually bothered. Kthxbai. See you in 2009 hopefully with better hair.

#25 The dramatic horn call

2008-12-12T18:46:00.001+08:00

Listening to Heroic Saga makes me so nostalgic now. Damn, I'm with a fever. It sucks cos' today is Caroline's Housewarming and I'm gonna miss it and and tomorrow's Amirah's concert, I hope I would be well enuf. Bye.

#24 Responsibilities are a pain.

2008-12-10T13:06:00.002+08:00

Nope, I didn't die at Perth or the plane ride. I just wanted to wait til everyone to send me some photos and edit them all to do a ultimate Perth trip picture post. But hahah, that can wait. Cos' thats like 50+ photos from Danial, Rachael and Liyana. I still miss Perth tho, it's so obvious how the air is different and everything. And also the people. People at Perth are so nice lah, at first I thought that there will be discrimination agaisnt asians but I was wrong! Not only are they nice, hehehe, they are very OMFG THAT'S PRETTY too.

Anyway tagged quiz from Sze En.

Rule One: People who have been tagged must write their answer on their blogs and replace any questiong that they dislike with a new formulated one by themselves.

Rule Two: Tag five people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tageed by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game sending it to other people.

#1. Do you like anyone currently?
> Hahahah actually yeah, I like almost everybody! [:

#2. How about the past?
> Yeah.

#3. Who's the best girl-friend you can trust?
> People who I can relate to, people who I trust are not people who understands me completely, they just understand just enough to relate.

#4. Name the people who has ever liked me.
> Hahah John, Bob, Jill and Sally. Nah! Kidding! I'm sure people like me, I'm nice! But if you are refering to like a crush or something, I doubt so.

#5. Did you have any girl-friend(s) before?
> Hahah no.

#6. When do you intend to get one?
> Idk but not now definitly. There's so much at hand.

#7. Your dream job is...
> Something relating to art/creating or talking.

#8. Has anyone break your heart badly before?
> Almost everyone else. *Stares!

#9. Have you cried out of jealousy?
> Hm, maybe yes. When I'm going thru a hard time in life, it normally happens.

#10. Name your best friends.
> Hahah of course John, Sally and Bob. Are you crazy? Hell no!

#11. Who knows your deepest secrets and vice versa?
> Hahahah other then the salivar thing about Aaron's hoodie, I think nothing else.

#12. Have your first kiss been given away?
> Hahaha I'm sure everyone else's is.

#13. Has anyone just came up to kiss and hug you?
> Hahaha hell no! Uhm, maybe just once.

#14. Which countries you love the most?
> Hm, Scotland, Holland(Amsterdam), France(Paris) and recently infactuated with, Australia(Perth).

#15. If you were given a chance to choose your future, what would it be?
> To achieve the best of fhorn playing in high school, then get less then 10 points for O levels. That's all I think of my future now, the rest is how I live my life.

#16. Name people who are simply gorgeous.
> LOL there are alot at Perth. * Beams

#15. Name people who are pretty.
> These two questions are retarded :l

#16. Name girls who make you go oh-so-hot-eh
> Her and and that OMFG saxaphonist in Carine SHS and and that trumpeter too ==" Ok, my image ruined alr.

#17. Name girls who are pretty.
> Gemma Ward. Haters to the left. No, I want the left, go to the right now.

#18. Given three wishes, what will you wish for?
> Excel in the fhorn, Do well for studies for at least another 3 years and GET RICH BAYBEH!

P.S./ Those who tagged me profusely or ask me to relink, wait awhile longer. Right now I'm just cant be bothered to do so, so sian. :X

#23 Have I grown up?

2008-11-27T19:38:00.002+08:00

Today had to wake up early again to go to school for sectionals. I'm annoyed with the procedues we have to go thru just to get our friggin' instruments on board. So Gah! Then lunch and that's pretty much how my day ended. Tomorrow I have to go to school to do the bubble wrapping thingum then to Penisula. I want sunglasses, a hoodie and a new bag. Gah. Packing tomorrow too. How hectic. Can't wait for Perth. Rofl! Have I grown up?

#22 When I say that something..

2008-11-26T19:14:00.003+08:00

Fourrrrrrr! Four what? Four more! More what? More days! Days what? Days to Perth trip! Muahahah! Four more days to Perth trip. :DDD I think these few days have been awesome I think? Previous week was a bang with all that band practices. This week was pretty much holiday-ish. Monday, there was this effin' short band prac. ):< Argh, I want long practices. Anyway that day was hanging with Amirah, Danial, Caroline, Shirly and Si Yuan.

Hahah pretty fun but lethagic. We were scourning thru Causeway for pants for Amirah and we were using the bass clar, horn and saxaphone cases as seats thru out. :X Was damn broke lah. But I still brought coloured shoelaces. Very bright siah the colour. Its a mid-range-toned between green and yellow. Hah! Always outstanding as usual. ;) Tuesday, I got my luggage with mum. Tuesday was boring lah.

Wednesday which is also today. Wanted to go to Bugis at first for Si Yuan's bag. But, of course not! ):< I hate Bugis alot actually. :l Anyhoot ended up going lots of places. Got my own school shoes. Wanted to get socks actually. But nothing was appealing to me. So I gave up. Had a fun day with Danial, Caroline, Shirly and Si Yuan lah. Bye! Next post should be just informing that I'm gonna be gone.

P.S./ Welcome back Aaron and Marissa! Missed you guys alot! (:

#21 カルメン・ファンタジー

2008-11-22T12:43:00.002+08:00

Ahhh, I'm just so lazy updating, everyday had been so busy. Perth trip is just next sunday! Hahahah, I don't know how I feel actually. Worried and excited tho. This whole week had been a hectic week. Haven't been feeling much of my holidays really. I should be out walking the streets acting like some dumb teen wastage. But woah, I'm actually pretty proud of myself. I have re-dedicated myself into band, or so I think. Gah, I really screwed up previously. Luckily I got back on track.

Monday's practice was very ): without Aaron and Marissa already lo. I sort of scolded the section? Then towards the end of the practice, haveto admit but they improved. Good thing! (: Can't wait for this section to be the best horn section by the end of this year. Heheh! Thursday one was bleh! Aaron and Marissa isn't here. Shikin's sick didnt come. Liyana went home halfway cos' she weren't feeling that well and Nat was overseas.

At least three of my sec1s worked it or so I think. Gah idk. But I heart the Perth Band! We made Jocuri Poporale Romanesti sound shiny. Hehehhe! Mr Sim canceled Dublin Dances. Arghchickenfishthingum! But I sort of got over it when Teng Li or any wierd name came! Hahahha, but ar came so late. Alamak! But at least she came here to touch our horns lah. xD You know you wanna! Oh! Of course I went to hate dinner afterwards. Was fun (:

Friday, what should I say? Was awesome! Met up for breakfast with woodgrovers then we went to St Hildas. Took a bus there and then a taxi. Retarded yes, don't mention. Oh! Ain, Danail and Caroline owe me money nooaw! Wahahah! The woodgrovers were like 'Toilet, toilet, where's toilet?!' But at least we greeted Mr Sim first! xD They were having sectionals. It was great. Teng Li, another example I must learn from. Some of her teaching methods, I must learn from. Must, must, must! Also woah her dynamics! Hahahh have to learn the good things only! Cannot learn from her say pangsai all the time! *Stares at Teng Li.

Anyhoo, Carmen Fantasy was full of gusto and strength. Unlike Jocuri Poporale Romanesti which is so ghay! Shared two tubs of ice cream with Danial and Hyekel which we apparently can't finish. Bus-ed back to woodlands. Sushi. Hah, tired. 8 more days to Perth trip. About a weeek but still so much I must learn. Aaron/Binni's tone and recently inspired, Teng Li's dynamics. Pray that I might blog again with less blocks of text and more pictures. (:

#20 Colonial Airs and Dances

2008-11-13T19:45:00.003+08:00

Oh my effin' god! Whuuuuuuuut! Hahahah the fickle minded me can actually sustain this URL for 20 blog posts. Hahahah quite an achievement considering my other blogs. To make this anniversary, should I change my URL? :X Yes I know! But I don't really love this URL anymore. I want something more sophiscated or smart not something too 'LULZ'. You'll never understand. ): It's my philosophy anyhoot! Flowers have their seasons and so do we... I hope you would understand SpaceHeroJitter..

Anyway today is pretty much wasted. The only reason why I'm blogging it's because I'm trying to kill time. The whole day I have been waiting for ANTM to air. I should be doing so much more constructive stuff but I haven't. Then I started digging out my band songs to listen and actually studied my scores. Yeah this shows how bored I'm. Anyhoo, I listened to alot of band songs today. I remembered how I would scourn thru the internet to just look for an recording of an piece I really like.

I still prefer those sophiscated pieces then those pop pieces, hands down! Right now listening to Robert Jager's Colonial Airs and Dances. Oh dude! How I hope we can do a piece with such dynamics and era. Ahh.. Heroic Saga love <3. Jocuri Poporale Romanesti just turns me off badly. Please God! Make a miracle! Change the piece and I will obey you forever.. or at least when I could. ;)

#19 I lost a bet with the devil, again

2008-11-12T00:05:00.002+08:00

Hahah, life is.. bearable! There was this day where Gladys and I went down to city hall and had this British styled takeaway. It was awesome. Then we went to Penisula to get her band merch. LOL she fails, she's like 'eheheh' all the time and wishy washy! We said we will come back, I thought yeah we should. Afterall there are still nice stuff there.

We then took a bus to Far East Plaza. Woah tell you man, the bus right is really mother chucker! The air-con is spoilt and the ventilation is super poor. Effin' stuffy. When we get off, it's so much cooler. Phhhhew! Anyhoo, we found band merch but wasn't exactly what she wanted. And so we ventured to Takashimaya to Art Friend and Kinokuniya. It was fun lah! Met a primary school friend. LOL very wierd.

Dinner was effin' cool to me. Pepper Lunch! Yuuuush! It's really cool, I promised myself to go there again. Anyhoo then about like yesturday, it was service learning to Tanglin School with the band. Tanglin School is a voluntary welfare organisation catering the needs of students with mild mental retardation. By going there, we ought to perform music theraphy for them.

It was pretty cool. Students there were very outgoing. During the break, it was a great chance for interaction. People were like talking. It was fun! Marissa claimmed that a girl was like stealing her boyfriend. Very funny lah! I don't know but I thought the performance was effin' great. Prolly I don't feel stress as the audience is all smiley. I had alot of fun during the performance. Not the most expected but surely one of my performance(I think).

Hahah, so everyone should be like overseas now. I mean like some people lah. Hais it's extremely annoying how you help people, waste your time. But people just 'LULZ U R DUMBZ'. Hahah, prolly I'm, but I will grow away from it. Not for you at least. Wink wink. ;) LOL this week Gossip Girl episode is stupid, hopefully ANTM will be great. Hahahha, random I know, but anyhoo!

#18 Bow-Chika-Bow-Wow! (Whut.)

2008-11-05T11:04:00.005+08:00

With all these days whinning to how sucky my holidays have been. I realised I haven't been really make use of the time to do things I'm suppose to do way before the holidays or maybe like few months before. That's why I made up a 'to-do-list'! I hope I can keep that up! I really need to finish stuff up. Wahahah, excited for Perth trip. For that will need a list to like remind myself what to get. YAY! Okay, but that can wait, now let's see.

Buy a new set of polishing/silver cloth with Aaron
Go brownie hunting/cupcake raping with Gladys (Fix a date!)
Get shelves from IKEA
Revive my friendster/facebook/myspace
Clean my horn
Start making commission-ed layouts
Finish my Desperate Housewifes
Buy A Cash

I remembered I had more on my mind this morning but oh nevermind, I will just come back and update. Cheers! Wink, wink. ;)

#17 Gas prices are blowing up sky high!

2008-11-02T16:00:00.004+08:00

Hey beetches! Here's a picscam to shut you guys up. LULZ! Okay, you can find me after school. But anyhoo, here's the outing last monday(27/10) with my lovely section. It rainned most of the time and my phone was always in my bag so there weren't much photos. But anyhoo, thank me. Editting every single photo here is really hard work. ):

LOSER!

Ragee @ Escape!

F!

to the... (sad) H!

to the... O!

to the... (drugged) R!

to the... N!

My awesome juniors being "amused" by the ferris wheel.

Hahaha, this is cute.

Marissa can't take photos with me ;) *Feels awesome*

#16 You look just like your father

2008-10-31T20:22:00.002+08:00

Heh, I haven't did anything brain related for such a long time already. I don't know. But mind kinda have no meaning now? It's not because it's the holidays but I dont know. God it took me a likely to be 10 minutes to write the above. Booster classes are really annoying. Yeah. Section outing wasn't fierce. It rainned the whole day and the theme park is filled with people in a different nationality. (If you get what I mean)

I kept making layouts and all that but I just don't know which to use. Almost all of them were awesome, I think. I want to go to Scotland now. Gah its so random now cos' I really don't know what to say. Oh dudette, I'm not an puppet for you to manipulate alright? You can't just treat me like shit then say some nice stuff then want the moon from me then shun me again after, alright? Suck it up.

#15 I dislike sensitivity attempts to kill

2008-10-24T16:00:00.002+08:00

Hell yeah, its an update from the dead! What a pleasant surprize it is! Oh well, I doubt anyone would be checking this out anyway. So above, is not some poorly photoshopped banner or anything but my wishlist promo! Here's the real thing so yeah. 2009 wishlist is out already, it's not full yet. I want so much more stuff so I should be updating soon lo.

Anyway, hah. Life have been confusing. But I thought I figured out already but I just can't cut the cord. I did so much planning for my life, gave myself so much expectations. But my life has always been on the alternative. Hmph, so much philosophy here. Anyway, Aaron had a dream, well I hope that could happen too but I'm sorry too bad that just won't happen.

I have been talking to alot of people recently I realised. I knew and learnt about much things about people. It's very intresting. Maybe I should do this more often, understand. Yeah.

On the lighter note, Darn my playlist is so yesturdayz. Hahah, expect itto change few more days. It's lame music now. Gossip girl's so wtheck. I can't stand the Blair/Chuck thing anymore. Last time I'm like such a fan of the both but no ty. I prefer Blair/Dan and Nate/Eric k! America's next top model was such a rollercoaster ride. Spoilers all said Analeigh's gonna be out but she got first beeeetches! Ugly Betty was just another boring week. About time they roughen it up baby!

#14 Shameless!

2008-10-12T23:28:00.002+08:00

Alright beetches! Apologizes, no pictures and hot video. Hahah, just lazy to just come here edit some images and talk. So no updates the pass few days. And also have been having a rocky temper since results. Well, after the exams, it was sure a blast. It was last wednesday(8/10) when I had my marking day. Spent the first half of the day catching up on every drama I missed while studying then went to meet Gladys to well, sadly, playing Risk which we still havent figure out how.

Then came the results. I don't know what but this is one of the most horrible roller-coaster-after-exam-taking-results period I had in my life. Normally I just waltz through or maybe just get eek-ish for abit. But woah this time I really had no idea how I did. Taking results were a totally crude mix of emotions. First I got back was geography. I just merely passed. I was never exceptionally good in geography so I thanked god abit. I think I was still at the top despite getting a pass? Cos' only 13% in my class passed that if I'm not wrong.

Then came SS. If I fail SS, all efforts will go into drain. I personally thinked I worked hardest for SS this time, so I better get back something acceptable from Fariz. Whut! A 29/50. I was dissapointed cos' I wanted more, but only like 5 passed from this? Next was chemistry, whole class failed except for me and someone else. Should be happy right? But it's just a mere pass again.

Just first half of the school-day already already don't know happy or sad. Then came my mother tounge, screw it lah, don't care! Memorized and practiced so much for it still the results the same. W/e. Recess was kinda fucked up. So I stayed in class to talk to Jorin and Jen. Was pretty fun. Then came physics, also alot of people fail but better then chem by abit. Mere pass also. But considering the failures. I don't know be happy or not siah.

Then came maths. First came paper ii. 40/100. Damn I screwed it up. 3 people passed that paper tho. Did alittle emo pose then went to sleep for the rest of the period. Heh! Then english. Really scary, that would determine my fate in becoming America's next top model! NAW! In going to secondary 4 bitches! Then came the results. 71/100! WHAT THE HECK?! Woah really crazy lo, first english A in sec 3 siah. So happy. But sian lo E1 and E2 sure score better de anyways.

The day ended up with taking back everything except for E Math paper i and Art paper. But it was pretty much a confirmed sec4 entry for me tho. For that day only me and Sathes got a confirmed entry to sec 4 according to our results in this E.0.Y. Very wtfuck then. I mean I sort-of kinda love my class alot now? I don't know not entirely but still very much. I just hope things come out well for them.. Then was band practice, I screwed that up by being a jerk to people, that means apologies for tomorrow's practice. =="

Then came E Math paper i results, this was very scary then HEY! 65/80. Damn I passed my math E.0Y papers by 57% and was the only person in my class to pass math yet again! But I know this sounds all brag-y but. I'm not like that lah. Hais, just worried for my class. Darn this post is long.

#13 Let me break the ice!

2008-10-06T20:11:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow's it beetches! >Victory dance! Fieeeerce tyra! Hahahah, tomorrow will be two of my last papers. Both chemistry and E math paper (i). I'm pretty excited. Plans of going to catch a movie at Cineleisure and then down to Kinokuniya(sp?) with Gladys on wednesday but beeeeetch! I wanna do something on tuesday. Should I just watch my dramas at home? LULZ. Loser life. Naw, back to doing chemical calculation then I go sketching of graph alr. Bye.

P.S./ See longer postes from tomorrow onwards beeetches! With pictures and a sexy video. Aing! No, really.

#12 Like a bitch, I would know.

2008-10-04T13:37:00.002+08:00

Severe-ly annoyed. Wait, is that how you spell severe? Gah don't care! Let me strikes an annoyed pose. >Pose! Ok I'm done. Freaaaako! Yeh whatever. Weather's fucking hot, everything just kuku! Fuck I hate life. I had not find a single paper easy last week so damn just flunked all. Zi Lin.. I hate people from that country you know?! They are so awesomely cheap! Sheeesh! They just bore me!

Anyways, did a layout. Not finished yet. But check out a preview of it here. I thought it was pretty. I sound cocky but I'm kinda happy for producing such work after like 1.5 years of hardly designing often. However, I still produced a cliche. Last time was those overuse of the neonlight blobs and now this 'style'. Gah, I hope I could develop something over time but why should I? Hhahah. Screw you, hooker! You change your mind like a X.

#11 You are wrong when it's right.

2008-10-02T20:22:00.003+08:00

Prepare for a new layout when I'm back from exams. I don't expect much from my exams this time. I flunked my math today, it's pretty bad. Unless I strike a miracle for paper (i), I will never pull this off. Oh well, Math, my most valued subject, poof! Better make sure I mantain that A1 for science and art and try to make my humanities one too to cover up for math. Gah, but I can't seem to get things into my head about geography. Damn mother toot!

Layout could be anything, a code-ish one or maybe a really big a spectacular now. I wanna have alot of fun making it so I might do a big one. But normally big ones needs alot of contents and I don't really have much to say. It will take alot of work. Gah just finish it lah exams, just go express then choing next year. No mood for anything. Just wanna design.. create.. fuck! My art prep is quite a screw up too!

#10 Teenage angst (Rageee!)

2008-09-28T23:29:00.002+08:00

I miss listening to white girls singing like Lindsay and Miley. Roflmao. Right now I'm all about bands. Yuk! Ok, random. I'm just really fucked up with my revision. So many attempts to get it right with SS still fails. Tomorrow is my SS paper already. Doubt I will be sleeping tonight. Damn! I hate this lah. I wish I had a time machine, or rather I could start all over from the start of this term. Gah, tomorrow I suppose I will be studying the chinese dictionary? Gah, w/e. I will win the war!

#9 I'm a boy aneroxic.

2008-09-27T11:49:00.006+08:00

One day I was surfing thru Youtube in midst of my revision and I happened to see this documentary on the BBC about boys with anorexia. It's scary when I see people of my age or younger struggling with eating disorders. Normally they are all girls but no matter what the gender is. It strikes a hard note. Look it up on Youtube, five parts. Pretty worth the watch.

#8 I came here to make you dance tonight!

2008-09-19T15:31:00.004+08:00

It took me awhile to realise that I'm on the verge on getting retained this year. I'm not deproving, rather deproving. Sheeesh. Everyone else is working so hard siah, I'm just moderate school days, yaw. Man luckily still got 1 more week. I really have to prove myself already. I gotta make it work. No more watching ANTM and project runway on thursday! It's making me waking up late on friday! I need friday! My chemistry, physics and e math is all there!

Yo momma, that's my batik painting yo! It was much nicer at first lo, I'm not bragging lah, it's so much nicer at first til the batik woman bo liao come here kuku lala my batik. _l_ her! Oh well, dosen't matter, I "sort of" saved it lah. Darn, going to do math questions now, goodbye! And I came here to make you dance tonight..

Edit./ I just googled myself and I just found myself as a alumni of Chua Chu Kang Secondary. Wtheck? Hahahah, man. I was expecting myself to be like America's next top model or something like that. Heh.

#7 Nobody really knew what to do.

2008-09-17T20:39:00.002+08:00

God, the days just get even more worse. I'm pretty much provoking every single boiling point I can hit now and I really don't intend to do so, it just happens. Let's see now, I finally finished my paper one for art few days before. It was a total crash, I normally excel in that, but I screwed it up. Hah!

And I'm starting to create a bad impression for myself in math. But I seriously didn't mean it lah. I'm pretty frustrated too lah. I was answering the teacher on how to do this math question that the whole class didn't know. I knew my answer was correct, my steps were precise and damn the teacher just gotta say I screwed up my steps. Then she went on to scold me then the class and further on praise a dumb idoit who I think deserve nothing cos' he ain't fucking know how to do a simple question.

As the class carried, I sort of gave the teacher a bad attitude. Alright, my fault maybe. But she don't have to come straight at me and say if I went to Normal Acadamic she would be the first one to laugh. That's when I'm really mad when I almost went "Fuck you!". But thank god I didn't. I wouldn't want to get myself into deep shit with any disiplinary teachers.

The day just sucked lah. I had to sit with this guy with his breath smelling like cigarettes? I didn't liked that. And people are like expecting so much from me? Seriously, just shut up lah. I think I'm at a state of my own "nirvana" in just afew more steps. Don't push any further, what more the wrong side.

Went home, the shower mmade me feel better somehow, made me feel clean and silver. =.= I was suppose to study for physics and do my math papers, but I went on to play Audition which I thought was totally worthed it. I have no intrest in putting any effort today. Let's leave it as that. Tomorrow, I'm gonna have batik classes again. Let's hope I don't end up splashing wax into some idoit's faces. That would be too amusing.

#6 Holler at ya boy!

2008-09-15T20:48:00.002+08:00

I realised, I should really stop freaking because of some pass acompliments I didn't achieve. It kinda sucks cos' I work so hard but things to don't work, they just don't happen. Is this secondary school life? If so I can't wait to graduate, go to junior college, finish my NS, get a degree and start work. I swear to god, I will have lots of fun with my work! But damn, I got another about 7 years more of education to go thru.

P.S./ Honestly, Darian, how could you be so dumb? What were you thinking?

#5 Tell your boyfriend.

2008-09-14T01:17:00.010+08:00

Why the heck is Darian, the space pirate up so late? Well I'm rushing prep-work. I'm 50% there already, if I dare to say so. I spend like 300 hours on an observational drawing and having so many second thoughts on re-doing everything in a different approach. Damn! I hate this, I'm so tempted to watch dramas, play games or whatever else. But even if I don't have prep-work I still gotta revise and such. I hate the whole end-of-year feeling. I don't like it at all. Just get done with it Darian, you will be having better days. New song addiction! (Don't Trust Me - 3OH!3) Wierd band name, I know.

"Tell your boyfriend (boyfriend), if he says he's got beef,
That I'm a vegetarian, and I ain't fucking scared of him. "
Wierd lyrics too, which are the bomb. I'm starting to get into the genre of music(Alternative), but I can't dance. Hahahah! The song is about being a man whore. Hahah, I'm wierd, I know! Right now, I'm hungry, tired and not doing work. I'm gonna eat. I hope I get fat tho. I have been eating excessively. Lots of mooncakes, tub of ice-cream and 4 to 5 meals a day. People have eating disorders, I'm kinda afraid I have disorder eating. Oh well, I just want to get to healthy weight. :l

#4 Didn't momma said never to play with fire?

2008-09-12T18:35:00.003+08:00

Let's talk about thursday. Hella fun! School was pretty dumb until the fire alarm sounded and my chemistry teacher was pretty much like, "Yo momma! Lax yo, aint fire" or something even more dumb. Then when a annoucement said the fire was real, she was became the "Oh my god! Fire! To the field a.s.a.p!" dumb woman. Hahah! At the field, I used most of the time crapping.

And for your info, if you not figured yet. Yes it's a real fire. It occured in the A.V.A room because of over heating or something like that. When the fire truck came, it was uber excitting. I was so keen on taking a photo of the fire truck or even getting some dumb people to pose with it. But bam! It's gone before reccess. Darn! Later during physics, Mr Junus was like "I'm so big cos' I sounded the alarm and extinguished the fire babybeh!". That's when I turned to my partner and rolled my eyes. W/e!

After school, I had my batik course. It was awesome lah! Did an orchid. But I screwed up at first. So there's this corner of the batik where it's super ugly. Hah! But it was really fun. But my hands smelled like wax for a few hours. I decided to go band afterwards after seeing Aaron and Liyana messaged me. Did Jocuri Poporale Romanesti during combine. Me and Liyana was like doing stupid expressions during our rests and counting our rests like super loud. Hah!

I didn't go to school today again because I woke up at 10am or something like that. It's gonna kill me cos' I have 3 Math periods and both sciences too! I really need to do alot of self study. It's 13 more days to the E.O.Ys. But definitly not that much time to revise minus the time for dumb weddings and such. Argh! D:

Actually, it's my fault too. I did some math but then went and watch my Project Runway and read some editorials. Singapore teenagers are far more interested in Far East Plaza or Bugis Fashion. But I'm only intrested in high fashion. Oh well, I can never pay for them. At least for now. When I can finally can pay for them, I would be too old to wear them. Hah! I want new Prada glasses and that Burberry jacket. ):

#3 Happy 16th Birthday, Hyekel.

2008-09-10T18:15:00.003+08:00

Definitly, one of the most tiring weeks for me. It's only wednesday and I'm actually totally drainned already. I have been staying back everytime for remedial and all that. It's super annoying. Tomorrow, I will have to stay back to learn how to do Batik Painting. Argh, super tired lah. Ever since the start of this term arh, wah really teenage angst lah! So angry with everything! ): Don't think I will be going band tomorrow since we have the Batik thingum til 5pm.

Also a good thing so I will stop hating for awhile. My chemistry teacher told us we screwed up our science pratical. I hope not me tho. Better be the rest of my classmates lah! :P I'm really panic-ky about E.O.Y right now lah. My math, sciences and humanities have so much to revise for. Ah oh well, just presevere I suppose? Just get done with it and I will breathe! Prep-work is in the process, at least I won't throw away my 50% for art just like that.

On a lighter note, Huai Qing is complaining about not having a english name during chinese lesson. Then he started talking about getting one and maybe "Charles" could be it. Then I told him if he want to be called "Charles", I would just call him "Chuck" cos' I have no intrest in curling up my tounge for the "-rles" everytime I call him. Then I somehow ended up calling him "Harry Jane" or something like that. Super lame. Oh well, study.

#2 You blew up the lab bastard!

2008-09-09T19:15:00.003+08:00

So we had our science praticals today. Chemistry one was really fun to do. However, those dumb people in class don't know how to do keep blowing things up or something like that. It was pretty annoying lah. Physics one was damn lame, we did refration. So we have to draw out the thing on plain paper right? Walaueh, then need to repeat steps for different degrees right? The paper say for every degree, new piece of paper. Wah siao I draw the diagram until cry lah.

So I went home, which I'm at now and just watched my Gossip Girl. Budden I'm seriously disliking the second season. It could be a good thing too. Can concentrade on studying. Today I think I totally wasted lah. I really need to buck up and start revising! It's pretty hard til our art teacher actually done something for us. I'm pretty touched lah, somehow. Told myself must really do my prep-work liao, don't make her angry.

Hahahah, so yah lor, the exciting life of Darian. Exciting huh? I'm pretty happy that I could sustain the blog for two neat posts! :D I hope this dosent end up like my previous previous (BackstageRomance.blogspot.com). Like about 14 neat posts then I got frustrated and anyhow post then closed it down. Heh! So think later I will do some math, physics and of course finish up half of prep-work at least. Wish me luck!

Edit./
I have to do this quiz right now. Seems fun lah, courtesy of Caroline Tan Kai Ting(???). Seems like fun, so let's have a go yeah!

#1. Where would you go if someone sponsors you an air ticket?
> Paris or London definitly!

#2. What's your favourite thing to do?
> Hahah, being stupid. Honestly yeah, I enjoy being stupid.

#3. Do you think money can buy happiness?
> Money can make one happy, but it won't buy happiness 100%.

#4. If you were given a chance to receive something, what would it be?
> Hmm, the gift of musicality? Hahahah, I lack of that. ):

#5. Things/People you can't live without?
> My family, my friends, my educators, my french horn and of course food. Hahahah I love food! But anyway, who dosen't? :P

#6. What are you afraid to lose?
> What that makes me less of who I'm.

#7. If you win $1 million dollars, what would you do?
> Oh that's simple lah! Settle the 700$ needed to go to Perth, put 500k into the bank. 250k for my parents to make decisions for me. 20k for my future education. 10k for a french horn. What ever that's left will be maybe dinner at a posh resturant or maybe travel to China with parent cos' they really wanna go China. Hahah!

#8. What do you dream of doing in the future?
> I don't really know leh. The music industry seems really cool, but I doubt I could handle it. The advertising industry seems cool, but hard to survive too. The journalism track seems cool too. I don't really know. I also want to do something that's related to art. Hahah, I don't know lah.

#9. List down 3 good points about the person who gave you this survey.
> She's clever, super good in terms of music and a happy person! (P.s. A carrot too! Crunchy and orange!)

#10. What makes you happy?
> People, things and food. Hahah!

#11. What type of person do you hate the most?
> People who make me upset. ):

#12. If you have a superpower, what would it be?
> Hmm, to hear thoughts or maybe some "Pew-pew!" powers too! xD

#13. Would you go for happiness or money?
> I think happiness. But one day if I'm super broke then I might choose money. Muhahah!

#14. Who do you think are the most important people in your life?
> Those who affects me in my life! Without them, I wouldn't be happy, angry, and sad.

#15. If you have a stead, would you die for them?
> Hahah, I'm still a small boy, death? Hahah, wait til I mature more to decide lah.

#16. Who's the last person who hugged you?
> Hahah, I don't really remember?

#17. What is the one thing you want to do badly right now?
> Finish this quiz with good answers and star on prep-work! :O

#18. Who are you close to?
> Fellow space pirates! Naw, what do you expect as an answer anyway dude?

#19. Are you courageous enough to the person that you like?
> Nah, I'm not courageous at all.

#20. If you could do something all over again what would it be?
> Redo my studies from primary one, rearrange my feelings and relations with people and that should make me a better person.

7 Things I like the most :
> Colours.
> Friends.
> The world outside of here.
> Music.
> Family.
> Being stupid.
> People.

7 Important things in my room :
> Bed.
> Computer.
> Fan.
> Handphone.
> Table and chair. (Hahah seriously, I ran out of things to say.)
> Money! :O
> Those memorial thingums lah.

7 Random facts about me :
> I have a green toothbrush.
> I have curly hair. (Whuut?)
> I am actually 120cm.
> I am actually 14. (Dammit!)
> I like twilight books.
> I dislike imeem alot.
> I know that I'm annoying.

7 Things I plan to do before I die :
> To travel the world.
> To apologize to everyone I did wrong to.
> To do all the thrill seeking stuff.
> To eat. (Hahahah, yah lah!)
> To host a reality show my own. (Hahah, it really want to host like maybe "The amazing race" or maybe "America's next top model" or or maybe "Don't forget the lyrics" or something like that leh!)
> To take part in a reality show myself.
> To finish this quiz. :l

7 Things I always say :
> We're patient, we wait, uhuh, yeah!
> Yeah right.
> Aiyh, I don't know lah, I talk so much always!

7 People to do this questionaire :
> Danial(?) - Caroline called him to do alreay. ):
> Gladys.
> Michelle.
> Sarah.
> Honestly, anyone who wants to do lah.

Alright man, I finished it! :D

#1 Mission has finally ended

2008-09-08T21:28:00.000+08:00

I'm pretty proud that I had finally opened up this blog shit from so many times I said I'm gonna open up a blog lah. I realised my history isn't really very impressive at all lah. From blogger to various blogger to livejournal and back to blogger and back to livejournal then a failed attempt in xanga and now I'm back in blogger. I kinda like this whole !Space Hero Jitter idea. I mean I had always wanted to be a space pirate! :D

School just sucked lah, I really had the fact I have to study like mad lah. I don't have time to breathe lah. Nevermind I told myself, just make it after E.O.Y, I will breathe! Nothing right now appeals to me. School work, pretty obvious lah. Band, it just confuses me so much lah. ): I don't know what I should really put in to band now lah. It's so frustration. But of course, don't think so much I will be fine? Art prep-work tomorrow, not even near finish. I guess I will be gone now. I will try very hard to keep this alive, I promise! ;)